Bittersweet Memories

2009-11-27T01:36:00.002+08:00

steph pang is off to hongkong/ shenzhen/ zhuhai/ macau!:D:D:DD

shopping, eating, (erm whats wen quan in english? hot springs?), and wells, more shopping -- here i come! ^^

2009-11-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

i finished watching zettai kareshi ((:
it's probably the best jap drama i've watched((:

i hope the next drama i watch won't make me cry as much.

2009-11-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

i realised that love makes even the ugliest person look very beautiful.

2009-11-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

i'm at the last eps of zettai kareshi :'(
as expected its at sad as the movie and the manga!:'((

tiny smsed me just now! uk peeps are back!:D so fast i ttly didn't expect it:O
and i realised taiwan peeps (leesilei) are gone too i nvr sms herD: sighs time passes so fast when you're slacking before you know it its gonna be the end of hols soon gahhh i dont wanttttt.

my aunt brought dorayaki home today for meeee:D hahaaaa yummm ^^
usa peeps should be coming back anytime soon i guess!
and then its time for me to fly off to hongkong yayyayyay!:D

kay i shall go watch the last eps + the special eps sighs. i like night tenjo heee.

Night X Riiko! x3

2009-11-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

hee im watching absolute boyfriend (zettai kareshi) the drama noww:DDD
read the manga and cried like hell; watched the movie and cried like hell; AWW ITS THE DRAMA'S TURN NOW i cant wait!:DD

sighs still coughing! its okay i'll recover soon i guess! and im v happy! wep ended so basically WOOHOO its slacking and more slacking for me from now on! im free every single day HYEHHYEH:D

its quite boring though. in the sense that everyone's all around the world, the only people left in sg are like sharonyeo/netto/jie/bigbird (yes my world v small my world is just about the size of ploty -.-) and yeah basically not hearing anything from anyone from ploty now cause those who usually do sms me like tiny and chelly are far away in angmoh countries T.T

gahgah its okay im going hongkong too! heh its really not wrong to say that everyone's all around the world; theres like tiny jelly jongie in uk, chelly ghc in usa, who else! hmm bigbird's going korea, im going to hongkong/macau/shenzhen/zhuhai, jie's going bali (hee i really cant forget balibong!), netto's going gold coast i think! and then coming back for a few days and then going EGYPT again (ARGH RICH GIRL I WANNA GO TOO). hmm OH YEAH and ranie's off at some ulu part of china with her fencing training!

gah boring boring boring T.T
but im still happy HAHA SLACK DAYS ARE THE LOVE:D

oh did i mention i danced a whole lot ytd!:D hee cause first its 1-2pm (erm not really it started late and ended late so it was more of 1.30-2.30pm gah) at CJ for ringdingdong:D then after that rushed back down to pioneer for dancefact's open house workshops (there were like modern jazz/ street jazz/ mtv hiphop/ bboy/ what else-- modern/ (..) recalls... hmm.. ah girls hiphop/ etc etc and it was like from 3.30pm-7.30pm? haha then after that was spposed to eat dinner w the peeps from my hiphop class but there wasnt enough time and we ended up sitting outside 7-11 eating cupnoodles instead T.T ahha i got some chocolate bread that yanying's friend said was nice too though!:D

haha and what else. ah i just like saturdays my fave day of the week:D hmm oh and i like dancefact hiphop class much much more now that everyone's in the class starting to become closer and yeah less stranger-ish and haha its just v fun!:D i kind of miss combo d with pam jean irene and the rest of them around though! barely know anyone in the ring ding dong class! and aish! im missing class on sat cause i'd be in hongkong!^^

haha. ooh im getting the black dance fact tee as part of my salary for helping them give out flyers and i ordered the purple one w diff design too!:D

haha what else what else. hmm why am i blogging now? cause im waiting for the drama to load!:P
gah i bet it finished loading alrdy i shall go back to the show!:DD

ooh ooh bare with the ugly blogskin my dear blog, i'll change the blogskin soon!
right after i:

scan notes for bigbird
paint my nails
pack for hongkong
email people:D
THINK OF WHAT TO GET FOR PLOTY PREZ FOR PLOTY WHILE IM IN HK ARGH.
watch zettai kareshi:D
(and the list continues)
OH WAIT and upload photos. it's weeks past graduation and i havent uploaded the pics yet HEH.

so in other words im so sorry dear blog i guess you wont get a change of skin so soon! HEH.

2009-11-15T11:47:00.001+08:00

it takes a lot of courage to see your own embarrassing moments.
- stephenie pang

HAHAHAH IM TALKING ABOUT THE GRACES VIDEO THAT MR ANG SENT US. HAHAHAHAHHA. I TTLY FAST FORWARDED MY DANCING/ FORGET LINES PART. HAHAHHAHAA.

2009-11-12T02:38:00.001+08:00

hahaha so cute kim hyun joong kisses the little girl on the lips! HAHA.

i'm feeling better mood wise now but grrr i'm not feeling better like literally -.- falling sick :( fever runny nose and cough and yeahh. ah wells!

2009-11-10T21:15:00.003+08:00

exhausted.

gah sorry but this probably isnt the best time to start speaking to me cause i'll feel like being really annoying and yeah. poofs. im tired.

i dont like to see happy people when im unhappy; feels so sadistically sadist.
yeah well happy people should just go hide in one corner of the earth and poof away poofs. poof poof poof.

POOF.

2009-11-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

when the time comes for me to miss you, i'll miss you with a smile.

409'09; i'll update l8r(: off to dance!

2009-11-05T20:13:00.003+08:00

so hot ^^
seunghyun and junghoon from ft islandd:DD
i told you seunghyun's cuute!~~

seunghyun!

junghoon!:D

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was pretty irritated/troubled today cause of a few reasons added together. sighs. still in a pretty terrible mood now. stupid stupid stupid. i've lost my source of income for the next three months to come. not just the sp job but also the wep one -.- okay apparently im not supposed to blog about it so ranting shall end here, but tell me how to overcome the bad feeling of knowing that your friends are earning $$ each day in their jobs while you do the same amt of work cept you don't get paid. its just a terrible feeling all in all, isnt it. kay ranting ends. i shall go rant to my teddy bear or something instead, how stupid. this sucks.

tmr's the last day of school and somehow it just doesnt feel like it to me yet. oh wells. last time having ploty as classmates, im gonna miss the 11 of them. everythings poofing so fast. as i said, before long it'd be time for hwach. and im not looking forward to it at all. i like being in a girls school.

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i dont like how things never go as planned.
it makes me pissed irritated annoyed and everything. im ttly a blood type A i guess.

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urgh i still cant stand it. knowing that my originally packed to the brim w money flowing in holiday plan has gone down to the drain like poof as suddenly as ever makes me v v v annoyed.

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oh should i cut bangs or not cut bangs? webfgyacafsgbt GRR.

2009-11-05T13:47:00.001+08:00

this is getting irritating.

SHOULD I CUT BANGS?

urgh everyone should just be born bald. and STAY BALD.

2009-11-03T21:14:00.003+08:00

hello im bored! waiting for 11pm now so im pretty much slacking away at the com. zzz have been sleeping in the afternoon/evening and staying up all the way till 3 or 4am these days; it feels weirdly nocturnal i dont really like it. but grr my com's cd player has something wrong with it and i can't play my full house/ whatever show im watching on my com so i can only watch in my living room. which is pretty much bad enough but my fam's watching tv most of the time so the only time i get to hog the tv is when they sleep -.-

anyways, its still not sinking in or anything but i shall still type it downn. school life in nanyang is ending in 3 days time! idk i don't feel sad or anything up till now, prolly cause it hasn't sunk in yet, and i've been suffering from major spammage of chinese mock papers and stuffs to think about school ending; but there's this bugging feeling that there's only 3 more days left for me to be classmates with the other 11 ploty peeps.

i ~~think~~ know i'd miss the feeling of seeing ploty everyday when i come to class.
gah. 3 days left.

2009-10-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN CAUSE THE PREVIOUS ONE SUDDENLY SCREWED UP AND I COULDNT SEE MY BLOG POSTS ANYMORE.

haha i know i didn't really do much about changing it i just copied and pasted the html code into my blog template thats all but who cares im not in the mood for prettifying my blog nowwwwww.

CAUSE IM WATCHING MEI-CHAN NO SHITSUJI HAHAHHAHAAH YES YES FINALLY AFTER SO LONG. (so long = since JUNE09) NYEHHYEHHYEH.

its nice HAHA though the butler thing is hmm. weird. abnormal. idk how to put it. BUT HAHAHHAA MY PAEDO GENES ARE ACTING SINCE I THINK THAT THE GENIUS GIRL whats her name mizuki? hahahaha is so cute:DD

OKAY IM POOFING BACK NOW. please ignore this post its utterly rubbish i'll delete it sometime soon (nodsnods)

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

2009-10-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

ploty chalet was over too soon :'(

it was fun haha. i liked it more than the other chalet we had last year. the supposed class chalet where only ploty peeps and some others (i think) turned up -.-

this post won't be long since i can't really type, my wrist hurts with every word i type. i hate it. but anyways, i dont like how things are passing so quickly.

when we turned up at coasta sands we were all like "ehh we came here last year for class chalet." "o.o last year? it felt like this year!" "gosh time passes so fast before we knew it one year has passed." and after chalet while walking to mrt w jie and joie, we walked past the bus stop that we alighted at on fri to go to the chalet and jie was saying smthng abt how we alighted at this bus stop just ytd to go to the chalet and then now we're leaving alrdy.

yes yes i don't like this, its all too fast.
i don't think i want 409 to end that quickly anymore. because i want to stay classmates with the 11 other ploty peeps. but with time passing so quickly, last few school days with ploty (and chinese -.-) will poof in no time. holidays would poof in no time. everything would poof in no time.

and poof its gonna be jc.

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ah wells that aside, chalet was really tonnes of fun. cause everyone (cept ghc who had cca D:) turned up and jie brought joie along (haha i think joie has quite a few photos w ploty by now :P) and every ploty person who turned up (cept jie GRR) wore the ultra bright ploty tee so we looked like some sunshine flagday group haha. and jie (and jelly) had to treat all of us to mcflurry (which was later changed to cone) which they really did HAHA.

and we did quite a lot of stuffs after which. skating/cycling, mahjong, werewolves (YES WE PLAYED WEREWOLVES IM SO HAPPY:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D), late night movie (500days of summer), arcade, climbing into some closed idk what shop, sunrise, etc etc and idk how the others felt but it was just v fun for me((:

it makes me want more of this, despite knowing that we wouldn't have many chances to do so anymore sighs :(

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hee i shall wrap up the post this is ridiculous i cant even type right now, ever since the "and poof its gonna be jc" line i've switched to using one hand to type. -.-

but before that, thanks tiny the gay poultry for inviting ploty to chalet hahahaha and sry i realized i didnt talk to your popo at all in the end! and tell your mama thanks for the (idk whats its called hehh) thingy for my wrist :D:D

and ploty+joie for being so sweet hee all the "how's your hand/wrist"-s and niceness and everything ^^

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ok i shall honestly stop now my left hand is getting suan frm all the typing -.-

PLOTYYYY ^^

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*ps im secretly happy we didn't go for leeminho cause it ended up cancelled afterall NYEHHYEHHYEH. ^^

2009-10-19T03:40:00.002+08:00

what am i gonna do after eoys. (which is *please note* in 2 DAYS TIME HAHAHAHA)

i am gonna go to savevid and download all the youtube videos that i've bookmarked (which happens to be ALOT) lol! yes i know i suck at IT i didnt even know of the existance of something called savevid.com where i can download youtube videos into video files and was like dying of amazement when the youtube link that i entered in savevid suddenly became a download link O.O

ahhh but i have horrible friends why didnt aaaaannnyone tell me about this beforehand LOL. to think i wasted 1hr + holding my phone camera and recording the youtube junghoon's mnet scandal video parts ZZZZZZ. AHA I CAN OFF MY COMPUTER IN PEACE KNOWING THAT THERES LOTSA NICE VIDS IN MY PHONE TO CARRY ME THROUGH THE PHY/MATH MUGGINGS:DDD

2009-10-19T01:06:00.002+08:00

im still repeating 0:55-0:59 of the ringdingdong live video like crazyy hahahah. AHHH my type my type my type so cutee:DDDD but its not normal for people to squeal at 1:07AM so i shall stop watching now :P

ahhhhh ahhhh ahhhhhhhh *squeals squeals squeals a little more* okay i shall go to sleep now. serious mugging tmr since its one day before physics paperrr D: JYJY!

AHHH ONEW AND HIS NEW HAIRSTYLEEEEE. AHHHHH. AHHH.

okay i take back what i said; maybe i'd just go watch that part one teenzy more time;))

2009-10-18T20:26:00.003+08:00

0:58 onew's smile ahhhhhh *O* you can see his cheekbone hahahah so cuteeee. even though i liked taemin and jonghyun more before ringdingdong i cant take my eyes off onew and his new hairstyle nowwww :D i think it suits him really really well; better than that mushroom headish hair. ONEW:DDDDD

taemin's hairstyle's okay:D not exactly crazy about it but i think its nicer than the mushroom head too it makes him look more matured heh! (makes me *unintentionally* forget that im older than him by a few months -.-) but i dont really care about how taemin looks though. its his dance that i love the most:DDD and his smile AHH SO CUTE:DDD

jonghyun/key/minhooo x3

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hehhh so sad mblaq and beast have to work harder to gain fans now that their debut clashes w shinee's comebacccckk. im still (half) rooting for beast though! son dongwoon gogogo!:D but haha shinee's x3333

2009-10-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

SHINEE'S RING DING DONG MV AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHH. haha let me hyperventilate here or i think i'd like laugh and squeal and scream in my sleep later on or something.

AYE I LIKE THEIR NEW STYLE. OMG. haha i like onew much more now w his new hair cause he looks.. hmm lets see. idk how to put it. boyishly hot. *O* and minho looks aweeeessssssummm with his new and longer hair hahahaha.

anw i had to pluck out my earphones cause i repeated that mv 6 times and if i continued listening i think i won't be able to get any physics done alrdy. AHHHH SO AWESOME SO AWESOME SO AWESOME

SHINee: YEAR OF US:D

2009-10-16T23:27:00.001+08:00

joheunsaram neoneun naege cheotsarang
sarangeul gareuchyeo jun saram
never forget you
i’ll remember you
gieokhae neo hanaman
im letting go afterall.

2009-10-15T08:39:00.002+08:00

im addicted to the song shortlegs told me about heh:P i like the tune of the song its so addictive! and aww the lyrics:D

good person~ you're my first love. the one who taught me to love~
never forget you, i'll remember you, i'll only remember you

((:

2009-10-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

B2ST (BEAST)

ahhh please look at the last guy he's so cute so cute right! (melts at his smile) hes son dongwoon btw and heee he looks really good!:DD

thai looking korean pretty boy!x3

2009-10-10T11:37:00.003+08:00

despite the really funny stumble at the end (LOL)

I LIKE:D

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hist is over!:D it feels like eoys are over EVERYTIME hist ends heh. but thinking back at the night before history when i was hyperventilating and dying, i feel so glad its over ^^

and its so nice to know that i have nice sweet friends aww:D jie and all her nice jie-ish smses and everything((: odie who smsed me this year and last year before hist to wish me luck though she doesnt even take hist((: ghc who spent the one hour before hist covering almost every hist topic w me by explaining to me all th points (it was like storytelling hahaha) while i hyperventilated and almost died ((:

x3

2009-10-04T08:56:00.002+08:00

after carefully planning through my revision schedule for history (and chem), i've come to a definite conclusion that its impossible for me to finish both of them by friday. (correction: without the existance of the chem test on fri, it is STILL impossible for me to finish history)

once again, should i abandon germany like what i did last year?
(answer: no -.-) but oh wells that will be my last resort. i plan to set aside weds and thurs for chem anyways, i cant really rmb what i've studied during the sept hols anymore D: (and i need to cover those that i havent covered D:

gah oh wells.
stephpang hwaiting! [hope till the end(:]

2009-10-04T04:51:00.003+08:00

ahh too tempting too tempting HII SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON TO HAVING THREE CONSECUTIVE DANCE CLASSES IN A DAAYYY?

i mean its MIROTIC afterall (biggest selling point), and i have eighty pitiful bucks in my possession right now = i can probably pay for it myself, and its right after my combo d mv class that im currently taking and after it ends i still have time to go for dance at dancepointe, and its near the end of the exams we have like what? one paper left? and ITS MIROTIC ITS MIROTIC ITS DONGBAAANGG HELLOOO:D:D:DD

but:
- that'll mean i'll have 0 pathetic dollars left in my possession = how to go whereever to vacation and shop and of the year!!?! and go out w ploty and stuffs?!
- what do i do from 5pm to 6pm (before i start travelling to my 7pm dance class) -.- (i used to spend it mugging at subway :P)
- im worried for the leeminho day cause i might be planning to skip all these classes just to have a look at leeminho in person! D: (depending on what time leeminho comes)

but ITS DONGBANG ITS DONGBANG ITS MIROTICCC. hahahaha. gah i think i'll just end up signing up for it afterall. xD wow wow then my saturdays would be like this:

2.30pm- 4pm: kpop mtv combo d class (shinee's replay/ juliette; bigbang's lies/ garagarago; suju's sorrysorry; ss501's dejavu; rain's rainism)
4pm- 5pm: mirotic dance class *O*
7pm- 8.30pm: hiphop at dancepointe/dancefact

EEEH SO FUN IM GONNA LIKE SATURDAAYSS MORE AND MORE NOWW((:

2009-10-03T14:20:00.019+08:00

(edit) read some articles about how dongbang being badly treated. i don't think i believe these articles (they're too exaggerated), but i got reminded of how my dongbang is still having a really hard time right now.

i feel really bad for them.
hwaiting, dongbang, hwaiting!:(

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jaejoong's tattoo. he's been adding on more and more tattoos recently, cause he said that tattoos reflect his feelings at different stages of life.

(the picture) shows the tattoo on jaejoong's back and it reads: "TVfXQ SOUL" (micky yoochun also has the same tattoo, with his being "TVfXQ MATES", cause they have really a good relationship and are just like soulmates.) you can google up what the other words tattooed onto his back are. and hmm he has another one on his waist i think, but the latest one should be the one on his chest (again, yoochun has the same one) and it says always keep the faith

aww ♥

and theres the interview with the TATIST, the people who helped them do their tattoos. its really nice, but im lazy to upload it onto my blog. he was talking about the meaning behind their tattoos(: http://lovetohateme.wordpress.com/2009/09/13/the-secret-behind-yoochun-jaejoongs-tattoo-an-interview-with-the-tattoo-master/

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http://sheenahaven.blogspot.com/2007/09/tvxq-couple-visual-indulgence.html
saw all the couple pairings formed in dongbang and pictures of their sweet times together and literally melted :'( it makes me really nostalgic of the time when they still didnt have the issue with sm and stuff and were still appearing to be really happy to us fans :(

you know initially when i heard about the sm lawsuit i was like huh o.O cause all i read was that they were fighting over stuffs like their pay and what i knew was that dongbang was like one of the biggest, most popular bands in asia so i naturally thought that they already had the best of everything (in terms of pay, popularity, career, etc) so why are they asking for more?

but after reading articles and stuff about them/ this lawsuit, i kinda get it now.

and yunho said that the five of them would never break up. but in the past, H.O.T (the band that was once under sm and were as hot in the 1980s period as dongbang is now) also faced problems, and they said that they wouldnt break up too, but eventually did. i dont want the same thing to happen to dongbang :(

dongbang wouldn't break up, right?

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jaejoong's messages to the rest of the band members. the sweetness behind all these words made me cry :'( dongbaangg :(

(edit: psfht i'm changing my blog song again. this time to dongbang. i desperately need to hear their songs/ voices D:)

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(taken from allkpop. 2nd october 2009)

Earlier today, TVXQ / DBSK / Tohoshinki got together on stage to hold a concert at the Hongkou Soccer Stadium in Shanghai, China. Despite the turmoil, rumors of breakup, and lawsuit with SM Entertainment, the boys got together and put on a great show for the more than 30,000 fans in attendance.

According to fan accounts, TVXQ's leader Yunho said: "The five of us will never part!" Even though the concert was held in China, this lead the crowd to chant "믿어요! 동방신기 사랑해" which translates to "Believe! We Love Dong Bang Shin Ki." Jaejoong, and Micky were both seen crying around this time as well.

There's also reports that all 5 cried together at the end.This reassured a lot of Cassiopeia who have always kept the faith and continue to do so.

aww dont cry jaejoong :'(
you guys will be back by the time my eoys end, right..?
jaejoong oppa saranghae ♥

hope till the end;

always keep the faith.

2009-10-02T20:23:00.003+08:00

one line posts sometimes have much more meaning than huge lengthy entries.

i felt really pretty happy today cause

1. ih is over and its like another big thing down(: good riddance to memorizing of poverty and what nots!:D i had a major brain vomit today when i saw the poverty question lol! i was guessing either lack of education or poor health cause the unemployment and corruption factors were used before alrdy. and heh! lack of education! hahaha its really funny cause ppl around me (and me) we were all laughing to ourselves in the "hyeh hyeh hyeh hyeh" kind of way after seeing the question. and then suddenly there was an outburst of WHOOOOO from 410 (who were chanting 'poverty! poverty! poverty!' like a few mins ago) and our class burst out laughing as well. they're a seriously cute class i tell you. and zheng was there saying bu yao xiao deng yi xia tai kai xin fan er ba quan bu dou gei wang le! hahaha.

its hilarous how i didnt even have time to read source F though. i had 5 mins left for sbq qn D. LOL so i just scanned through the source in like 5 secs and picked out a keyword like "singaporeans lack skill" (for example larh) and then straightaway wrote 'the source is useful in telling me that singaporeans lack skill, thus... (the next chunk of stuffs were crapped out by myself like i make my own story lol! but it sounded pretty acceptable!)

2. long break after that. sat at hall watching ploty play ball((: hahaha i think im the only one from ploty thats like always sitting there watching them play without actually joining in myself. but i like watching them play they're natural comedians i tell you watching them play always makes you laugh xD and it being amusing aside, its nice to see how they pass the ball to one another/ how they've improved since last year too. like jongie lol she used to be terrible at bball last year! (though better than me) but this year she can shoot much better and stuffs heh! theyre amazing whoosh.

3. laughed alot cause of the people sitting around me (those at the front few rows of the class). and haha they're really cute can you believe papapiggy, tongpiggy and silei were actually talking about the facebook game farmville before the ih paper cause they didnt want to waste braincells revising anymore hahahaha. and zzz i might always be teasing my cute shortlegs granddaughterrr but hahah honestly, i love where im currently sitting its like really fun hahhahahaha. pixie songs! (fine im more like a frogg *croaks*)

4. stupid jie! hahahaha my dumb sister is also really really funny gosh gosh i never knew (first impressions are never reliable) heh! incident number one:

(lunchtime. steph jie ghc walking down the stairs to canteen.)
haha then jie was complaining like some old lady that her legs v tired, so i was like zz really? then stop walking, stand there. and *note we were walking down a flight of stairs. so yes can you believe it she really stopped walking and stood there, in the middle of nowhere HAHAHA. and she was still like "..?" as though she was wondering what next after standing there. hahaha then me and ghc looked at her for like one sec and i was like "ghc lets go xD" and so we started walking leaving jie still standing like a goondu there before she finally realized that she's been tricked. AISH DAMN GULLIBLE.

then as we walked down the stairs again, at the second floor. i looked up at the ceiling there and went "O.O spiderweb!" and then nicolegoh immediately fell for it and looked in the same direction for the nonexistant spiderweb hahaha and smart steph took the chance to smack her head HEH. THEN, SHE TRIED THE SAME TRICK ON ME in the canteen except it was the exaaact same spiderweb trick (no creativity right!) and her reaction was so slow that by the time she was about to smack my head i had alrdy registered that it was a trick and avoided being smacked HEH!

aish and after school too! she and bigbird were like trying to make me vomit blood (heeeeellllppp -.-) im such a pitiful case look. jie likes and treats my rsvp better than me. my rsvp likes and treats my jie better than me. and when i complained to bigbird about that she said i like your jie more than you too!^^ HELLLPPP IM SUCH AN UNWANTED CHILD T.T

5. cuteness of some people in the class. like feiya hahaha i just felt really tired plus my backbone has been aching for the past two days so i was like resting my head on my table after school and stuff and then first bigbird went past and taptapped me, then i smiled and went back to resting my head cause it still ached like crazy its really bad and then suddenly there was a voice beside me that somewhat went "stephenie are you ok?" and i looked up a bit and i saw feiya like right beside me and hahaha even though she looks so boyish most of the time she has her cute moments too she looked damn cute then and i was like yepp!^^ haha my classmates are so cute:D and behlien too haha chinese was getting boring so she was leaning on her table and i was leaning on mine and we were facing each other and being silly waving to each other xD and tiny hahahaha she was doing weird stuff with her hankerchief by tying it on her head or something! WEIRD GAY HEH. aish they're cute:DDD

6. jellylee came back to class after her math remedial and she was waiting for her mum (who eventually smsed her to tell her that she'd only come fetch her at 6.30pm lol) and so she started sitting down and we started chatting and heh she's really good at getting people to talk we chatted for like more than one hour non-stop before we knew it lol. about lots of diff stuffs etc and yeah its nice to just talk about stuffs sometimes, not those purely happy and senseless talks but actually about some other stuffs. heh talking w her is like talking w tungsy or something its nice, and its really kinda natural not those kind of awkward trying to squeeze and squeeze out stuffs but to no avail kinda things. which is quite surprising i've never imagined myself to be able to talk to jelly, of all people, for one hour plus straight like just the two of us but heh! i really do admire those ppl who can effortlessly get others to talk to them cause its just pretty much amazing :O for me, that is, i can never do that. and its not like you can talk to anyone and everyone this easily, it depends, most of the time. so far the only people who've managed to get me to open my mouth and talk rather easily are just tungsy and jelly. which is nice i mean, by actually talking to your friends and stuff you dont end up bottling up stuffs and thats the key to being happy since it make you feel v light after that.

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cj called just now to say that theres no class tmr cause jojo has performance. and somehow i feel a great sense of relief cause i realised that that means i have the whole day (till evening when dancepointe hiphop starts) to studaaaaaayyyyyyyy. hahahaha. and besides that means i have more time to prac juliettte dance and replay dance (the new parts of replay dance as well) heh! and no need of spending money for subway tmr too!(: you can really see my money going down cause of stuffs like subway on sat (cause must study what. so need to find some place to study) and my mum doesnt give me money on sat idk why T.T sighs im a sad kid in poverty! oh that reminds me! HAHAHA cause we were saying before ih today how we'd die if poverty didnt come out, ranie said haha if it doesnt come out we'll all stand up and go on strike saying "we want poverty! we want poverty!" haha the literal meaning of that is hilarious xD

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only bad thing about today? back and whatever still aching like crazy. must be because of my bad sitting posture but ahh help really uncomfortable. ooh but (thought of another good thing) watched the 7pm singapore/malaysia show final episode hehhh:D

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oh im not planning to study tonight(: rest. the much needed resttt x3

2009-10-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes all you need is a good talk(:

2009-09-30T20:08:00.002+08:00

new blog song by new singer!:D

haha this song is called lost child by a sixteen year old solo singer called lee ji eun (stage name: IU). haha i like this song a lot cause its the kind that i like!:D and can you believe she's the same age as me! D: oh no maybe even younger, she was born on 16th May 1993.

why are people my age all so talented now :'(
taemin can DANCE and iu sings real well too :'(

aish but her voice is really powerful and nice, i like it!:D haha im not really into how she looks or whatever, (i only like pretty boys), but i like her song:D gee she should gain more popularity. she's good(:

2009-09-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

tmr marks the start of eoys! :O

it'll be chinese, then english on thursday and ih on friday, three consecutive tests in one week! D: it's okay, i shall just try my best to survive it though i have no idea how to ((:

haha my sole motivation now is simply the end of eoys (honestly i dont care about chinese o's hahaha) so yepp 21st or 22nd or whatever october, here i come! i've alrdy made a new (mental) list of things to do after eoys so heh! i cant wait! i'll also spam more kpop videos too ahahaha. just (hmm) 3 weeks or so, my dear ft island/ dongbang (two biggest loves haha though im starting to love shinee more and more too :D) as well as shinee/ 2pm/ bigbang/ suju (?- maybe. dont really like them still though T.T)/ f(x)/ etc etc; wait for me we'll reunite in 3 weeks time!:DDD

oh and mangas/anime (like vampire knight) HEH i just started to like them though i wasnt into that before! but haha its quite nice too, as in vampire knight!:D and hmm dramas! you're beautiful by hongki and full house (rewatching) and maybe tokyo juliet (rewatching) AND AHH. THE HOUSEKEEPER/ BUTLER JAP SHOW I BOUGHT FROM VIETNAM. sheesh! bought for 4 months alrdy still havent watch!

YEP IM EXCITED AND PUMPED UP ALRDY I SHALL MUG HARD YO!
HWAITING.

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in the meantime, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUNGSY. my first friend in nanyang/ friend for four years alrdy! HAHA basically i owe her 13+14+15+16=58 mooncakes (accumulated since sec one!) haha (she knows shes never gonna get it xD) haha shall go send her a facebook wallpost. but does she even go to facebook anymore zzz-.-

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HWAITING.

2009-09-27T22:47:00.003+08:00

taemin! :3

learning shinee's juliette + replay dances these two weeks = watching their dances a lot to practice = looking at taemin (he's the lead dancer you know!) dance more often than usual. and i realised that the more i looked at him the more i liked him LOL. which is really amazing i didnt actually like taemin at first i liked minho more :P

taemin!:D (the only thing i dont like about him is his age though D: how can he dance so well when he's as old as ME! D: oh no he's YOUNGER, by monthzxzzxzxz -.-)

2009-09-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

aish i have headache now due to the death of massive brain cells (w the murderer being trigo D:) haha attempted to do trigo 13 (proving identities) and trigo 14 at the lib today and i ended up moving from the 3rd floor (where its like hmm really hard to get a seat and yet i got one) to the cafe (which i didnt want to go to at first cause it means $$) because i decided i needed food/drinks to power my brain for maatthh hahaha.

and i was having the going to benkui look switching from math to ih (which was equally as sickening) and then back to math again lol lol.

okay at least its night now i can finally slack :D but aish i shall go practice replay dance again (addicted zomgg hahaha) and then do ih (ITS LIKE FRIGGING NEXT WEEK OR NEXT NEXT WEEK how can i not realize that!) and yeah sleep! D;

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haha im really more actively looking at lj now and im glad there're things called communities cause i get all the updates about my ft island/ dongbang/ shinee/ 2pm/ bigbang/ f(x)/ and who nots and what nots x333

in any case look at this!D: the latest update abt dbsk's lawsuit, haha i see dbsk getting the upperhand, w sm entertainment finally having to surrender the documents. (sm's faiiiling sm's faaaiilinggg i see dbsk's return coming nearer and neaaarer now, maybe by the time eoys end the whole thing would be settledd:DDD) ahh dongbang hurry win the lawsuit and come back D: i miss my jaejoong D; (oh go read about their tattoos its so AWWW)

and (by our dear sm entertainment)
"...and stressed that the group did not bring in much profit for the company"

HUH HUH HUH. WHAT THE HECK. THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT DONGBANG HERE YOU KNOWWW D: fine i understand english i know that they mean that they used most of the money that has been earned by dongbang on stuffs like packaging dongbang and stuffs like that and even made a loss at some pt of time. BUT STILLLLLLLLL.

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byeeee:D

2009-09-24T20:56:00.004+08:00

i might want to run tmr.

zz i realised that whenever i make sudden abrupt decisions at night like "i want to run tmr" i'd wake up the next day and utterly change my mind. "ee v tired dont wanna run anymore" "so weird running alone" "run w specs v disgusting my specs keep drooping T.T"

but i really need to run. and cut down on oily food. and on eating too much. its a wonder how my mum thinks that im hardly eating and is always saying "must eat kay" prb because she thinks im on food diet to save money (hmm reminds me of a certain short legs) when im eating twice as much as normal ppl D:

aish before anyone who reads this thinks its because stephpang feels fat and is on a jian fei ji hua again, its really not -.- honestly, i dont really feel fat anymore cause i realised im really pretty fine and being too self-conscious abt myself is like perpetually annoying.

but its just cause these days i've been feeling the fats clogged in my vessels that kind of feeling back again. its like you can feel it like yeah the blood cant really pass through in your arms and stuffs like that. -.- aish inner fats.

zz nvm i shall watch my diet from now on.

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saw the joint community that the gang at the left side of our class set up haha i like the name sundaescribbles and i think its cute how they do stuffs like these cause aww its like somehow when you think back abt upper sec, sec sch and you rmb stuffs like these it'll end up putting a smile on your face(: which is real sweet, in a sense. just doing things as friends. its the same abt ploty actually, when i think abt ploty next time, im sure i'd smile too(;

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ahh help i hate this -.- typed a whole chunk of words abt some stuffs i ended up deleting them like some loser because i couldnt muster the courage to actually post it, just cause it included some things abt some friends (which arent even exactly bad its just their characteristic which they themselves prb know too) but still, you know theres always the thing about people taking things the wrong way and the stuffs that follow behind it. its the same logic as being pissed because someone did something but you say 'oh its not really your fault im angry (though you know it mostly is)' cause what else can you say? its that usual naked kinda feeling for expressing what you really feel, isnt it.

in any case, its just like how (hmm) oh you see a group of CALs strut into some place like they're some big things and talking v loudly and high-pitchedly and purposely-dumb blondely (esp when their CAB counterparts are around). because you dont know them, its easy for you to shower criticisms abt them "zomg i see cals" "i cant stand cals they should just go one corner and evaporate (oh on second thoughts no that'll cause air pollution)" "eeh they walk like donald ducks and daisy ducks (cause of their butt shaking)" "omg their im-acting-dumb-(cause its cute)-but-just-pretend-youdontknow attitude is grossing me out". yeah because you dont know them.

but imagine if you made friends w them, you know that they're actually really sweet ppl, really nice, really aww-ing at times, and you're really good friends w them, but still their strutting/ loud talking w high pitch/ act like dumbblondeing still disturbs you, how do you actually open your mouth and tell them that? like (meekly) "hmm can you walk more normally?" "aish just be yourself (dont need to ask silly questions that you know that you know the answer to, just to (idk why either))". you're just trying to pt it out to them, w like no horrible intention or anything, but you'd have to admit that the truth never sounds nice. its like if ppl tell me what they truly feel about me sometimes, its gonna be hard for me to take it too, though i'd prb agree w it after awhile, its the initial stage that is arghh. its hard you know, cause their feelings do matter this time round.

yeah what im trying to say (through the cal example - which is really true okay my neighbourhood is sadly full of cals and im like yanying i cant stand them, zero zip zil zz) is that its the same thing w my post. aish. nvm shall stop. why do i have the feeling i'd end up feeling silly for posting stuffs like these which arent even 80% coherent and delete this post/ replace it w a picture spammage post? -.-

gah i know i shall small font it.

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i want to move to lj after eoys lol. found pretty icons and stuffs so i thought lj might be a nice change (: but you have to pay to upload more icons though T.T (which i dont mind BUT zz i dont have THE visa/ mastercard and what nts) -.-

but hahaha im looking forward to it, pretty icons!(: and i dont really feel like friends locking cause i know ppl like ghc and netto read my blog hahaha. but still! aish nvm need to study shall stop rubbishing on and on.

I SHALL CLOSE THIS WINDOW AND GO BATHE RIGHT NOW.

2009-09-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

i have a cute friend lol ((=

the memories are the same, but i could have been the one to change says:
heeeee yayyyyy
nights grandma!!!
me poof off now!
*poof!*
starshelle. not.jazzerina says:
okie! poofie poofie BYE!:D
the memories are the same, but i could have been the one to change says:
i say i poofie already so you must say bye before that!
starshelle. not.jazzerina says:
URGH.
the memories are the same, but i could have been the one to change says:
once i poofie you cannot say bye already cuz i wont be here!
starshelle. not.jazzerina says:
BYE -.-
AHHHH FINNEEEE
AGAIN.
BYEEE x3
the memories are the same, but i could have been the one to change says:
*poof!*

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i think when i actually get abt doing nanyang/ploty/jazz etc scrapbook later this year the memories would be so overwhelming i'd probably cry, lol. thinking about it makes me squeachy squelchy alrdy :/

2009-09-21T20:33:00.004+08:00

haha practiced shinee's replay (noona neomu yeppeo) dance for 10 mins just now and im sweating like crazy now. awesome. BURN FATS BURN FATS LOL. but honestly! i feel really good and refreshed now:DD

and i feel really great too cause apparently im much more familiar w my steps now!:D still look horrible dancing though D: aish i know im not the hiphop type but its okay! i'll practice and practice and practice!:D

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aish this is BAD. why do i feel more accomplished in learning my dance steps rather than STUDYING right now?! D:

MUG, STEPHPANG, MUGGG.

***

JUNGHOON'S MNET SCANDAL EPISODE (ENG SUBS) IS SLOWLY BEING UPLOADED ONTO YOUTUBE YAY:D

oh please tell me youtube wont be horrible and decide to remove all the mnet scandal uploads one day, i think i'll die D:

2009-09-19T22:13:00.003+08:00

talking to malacca ppl just now made me really nostalgic about that place.

i dont like the feeling of missing something. ningbo/malacca/blahblahblah.

sometimes i'd wish that i'd be just like bigbird, being able to keep in contact w everyone and all. but i know im not like this, i know that im the kind that would not put in the effort to stay in touch w ppl and all sometimes, regardless of them being china peeps/ malacca peeps/ exclassmates/ exdance friends and what nots. so who am i to be all sad and nostalgic here right now? aish.

2009-09-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

HI I LEARNT SHINEE's REPLAY DANCE AND SUJU'S SORRYSORRY TODAYY HAHAHAHA.

learnt shinee's replay dance in the aft at CJ (omg happiness haha this is like one of the dances that made me take up the mtv combo classes HEH) and then ate/ studied at united square's subway till 6pm before leaving for my next dance class at dancepointe/ dancefact!:D AND HAHAHA WE LEARNT SORRYSORRY BY SUJU.

ah wells i know im gonna learn it sooner or later in CJ cause its in the package BUT LEARNING TWO KOREAN DANCES IN A DAY MAKES STEPH A VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HAPPY GIRL AHHHH:DDD

i was like practically bouncing off the bus when i alighted after dance at dancefact and i probably looked like a martian doing that but YOU KNOW WHATS THE GOOD THING ABOUT TAKING A BUS W COMPLETE STRANGERS? you can do embarrassing things for all you want and THEY DONT KNOW/ WONT RMB YOU MUAHAHA:D

AHHH KOREAANNN CRAZZZEEEE:D

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i like being happy. and i like being a kpop fan. i made new friends today:DDDD and basically they started w kpop talk LOL. at CJ theres this girl called pamela whos older than me and when i first saw her she was all smiles and v friendly alrdy its hard not to make friends w someone looking so nice like her haha!(: so it was nice, like was thinking that i'd prb end up dancing alone in the class and stuffs but heh! before the class started i alrdy had a friend to dance w!:D

i think now that i've made friends w someone i should prb be nice and start convos w the other ppl in my class who are learning dance all alone too, though :X i know how its not that nice a feeling to be dancing all alone and how its much nicer to have friends to laugh w while dancing; ah wells, they remind me of me. steph shall be a friendlier person:D

ohyeah haha th world is so small once again:D saw tungsy's friend lejing and another girl (idk her name) from nygh too at CJ haha! its pretty amusing like "are you from my school?! O_O" "are you stephenie?" "are you lejing?" haha:D its so coincidential that theres bound to be ny ppl in most of the dance classes i go to HAHA. yanying at dance fact/ poo (actually and poo's classmate chongmin) at jazz cats, etc etc haha! its nice:D

and then at dancefact/ dancepointe however you call it theres this girl (idk her name too!D:) and cause jacky said that we're doing sorry sorry dance today her entire face practically lit up it was hilarious HAHA. reminds me of how i fangirl too! so basically started talking abt kpop w her too AHAH. its pretty amazing since took dance at dancefact for how many lessons and we hardly talked! HAHAHA. its fun though! fangirling w other fangirls LOL.

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i like being happy. i think being happy brings out the 'nuah' and bimbotic side of me :D like my sec one and sec two self i guess! and being that side of me makes everything nicer and simpler-- i make friends easily, i smile 99.99% of the time, i goof around and get so silly and retarded it makes me happy.

i want to stay like that.

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EH STUPID TWITCHING EYELID TWITCH FOR FOUR DAYS ALRDY. scared me this morning when i was doing my eyeliner cause AHHH ZOMG my eye was one eye big one eye small, and then pft i realised its cause the twitching gave my eyelid at temporary TRIPLE eyelid. while my other (normal) side only had a double. PFT SCARE ME I LOOKED like this: o.O

DDDD: but haha its better now though BUT AH HELP I DONT WANT TRIPLE EYELID, GO AWAY, TWITCHING!

i should think in the positive way (as quoted from jie who was being v nice that morning):

ranie: oh no eyelid twitching means something bad's gonna happen to you!

steph: (sulks) no they said one side twitch means something good while the other side is then something bad! i wonder which side is something good!D:

jie: whichever side that twitches!

steph: (didnt register yet and thought she was saying something mean and horrible as usual so i continued sulking)

jie: that will make you feel better right:D (something arnd that line)

steph: (finally realised what jie just said and v happy hahaha)

YEPYEP I SHALL BELIEVE THAT THIS SIDE THATS TWITCHING MEANS SOMETHING GOOD'S GONNA HAPPEN HEHH:DD BUT STILL, I WANT THE TWITCHING TO POOF I DONT WANT TRIPLE EYELID NONONO D:

2009-09-19T09:01:00.003+08:00

oh and reading bigbird's xanga made me remember.

haha went to ura/uda or u_a (AISH I CANT RMB) w ploty on (i forgot what day too -.-) was fun ahahaha!

ploty catching was pretty amusing, thinking back about it still makes me smile((:
(bigbird send PICSSSSS)

thinking back about times like these makes me pretty certain that sometime in the near future, im gonna miss these times that we've had as ploty :(

2009-09-18T20:22:00.003+08:00

after posting so many koreancrazed pics i decided that my blog ought to have some school photos and stuffs HAHA.

school's fun these few days -- i like where im sitting in class cause its basically fun everyday, w leesilei the cheeky shortlegs sitting beside me amusing me w her cheekiness and ranie the gluttonous rsvp (please help me rmb i have a $3 bet w her on whether she can persist on not eating icecream lol lol im sure i'll get my $6 successfully) and pig family sitting so nearby they're like not that much like ploty in the sense that they laugh to even the silliest thing you do so the mood around my table is basically v nice:D

and recess is fine too its like its nice to know that when you get sick of staying in class doing your work and stuffs during recess etc chelly tiny and sometimes the rest would almost always be in the hall playing basketball, and you can just go there, sit down and watch them-- it's a pretty nice feeling doing that, like something habitual, and watching them play somehow makes me wanna laugh/smile too. so yeah, its nice(:

been hanging out w/talking to jie alot more again these days compared to the past few months/weeks too:D and haha i've come to conclude that though i dont like 409 as a class cause its like no where near my idea of a bonded or fun class, i like the individual peeps in our class cause i realised that they're really fun/ nice people(: ploty/pigfam/behlien/yx/ziai/xiaolu/etc etc etc (:

pe on thurs was fun haha. super big grp of ppl playing basketball, but i conclude from ice and freeze that im too old for catching D: i was like chasing chasing chasing and poof tired alrdy. heh!

chelly and ~~slim~~shortlegs! at hsk on sat, which was a pretty much boring thing you can see the whole class dozing off haha!

sharonyeo and chelly after school on some random friday!:D heh so cool its like all three generations:D mother, daughter, grandmother!:D

poo dawnie and jialun after 203's teachers day performance:D lovedubbss:DD

haha i realised i couldnt resist it and decided to post another koreancraze pic afterall:DDD hahaha mnet scandal again, taecyeon frm 2pm and his scandal! haha netto's gonna be v happy that im actually posting a 2pm member's pic!

but haha im not a fan of taecyeon tho, i like chansung and nickhun and jaebeom more(:

2009-09-16T20:27:00.003+08:00

haha awesome i shall upload photos now that blogger's photo uploading is still working :O haha ft islanddd:D oh gosh i realised that im starting to fangirl about more korean bands now (aft sept hols HEH) ft island dbsk 2pm 2am shinee ss501 f(x) bigbang hahahahaa!

MNET SCANDAL!:DD

AWW i want to camwhore w junghoon too hahaha! but i think its so amusing seeing fans saying how they want to die watching this show! HAHA go watch ittttt i likeeeeeee:D

seunghyunnnnn:D apparently he's so cute but URGH he's nt as photogenic as jaejin/ junghoon. thats why even though im not that big a fan of jaejin i have like more pics of him than of seunghyunn D: seunghyun seunghyun seunghyun! (isnt his smile so awesome? it makes you want to smile too :D)

D: I DONT LIKE DONT LIKE DONT LIKE THEIR NEW HAIRDOS D: all v horrible URGH JUNGHOON SHLD GO GET HIS BLACK HAIR BAAACCCKKK DDD:

haha i like this photo alot though:D junghoon looks really _____ *O* here hahahaha! the rightest guy w the ponytail. omgzxzxzx:D

AHHH JUNGHOON:DDD

school these few days is pretty much fine((: haha im gonna persevere till the end of eoys cause i've got lotsa things that i wanna do do do!:DDD

(my eyelid kept twitching today SINCE 8AM IN THE MORNING and its still twitching now. aish lack of sleep i guess. i shall sleep at 10 today:D)

POOFS BYEE:D

// ss501 songs are nice! HEH! i started to mass download them after jelly played the SS501- FIND song in the conf rm last tues HEH. NICENICE:D

// IM GONNA LEARN SHINEE's REPLAY DANCE/ JULIETTE DANCE HAHAHAHA.

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haha cause ahjuma's so nice,

I LOVE TWAEJI AHJUMA :D and im sure someone w the name of BYJ does too:DDD

2009-09-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

aish today is basically a 'i feel so cheated day'. nvm nvm i shant elaborate, maybe i'd rant later, but not now. im just tired, exhausted and everything now. pretty cranky, actually.

(side note) i realised that im weird. like i can be really friendly and sweet and easy to befriend at times, and yet there are times when i can just let opportunities to make friends slip by without really being bothered abt it. there were two girls who talked to me today asking me where my friend had gone to and i just answered their qn, gave a friendly smile and then returned back to my own fourth dimension, when i knew very well that i could've easily said something to strike a convo like "hey you cut your hair". maybe i was tired, i guess. but hmm.

its really weird how i am pretty fine with hanging out alone. watching movies alone sometimes, cause i cant be bothered to ask people out and didnt really want to as well; studying alone in the library when i could've just said yes to some ppl abt studying together; eating alone outside of home; sitting through a whole dance workshop alone surrounded by complete strangers; spending 99% of my life (besides sch) cooping at home alone in my room.

like what some people, such as bigbird said (during the flea market), she cant go watch movie, etc alone. and she got me and tiny to walk around the flea market w her prolly cause she felt weird that she was shopping all alone. which i realised thats how most ppl feel too. but for me i think it'd be perfectly normal for me to walk around shopping centres/ flea markets/ whatever by myself doing my own shopping. sure, it'd be lonely, especially when you see people huddled together in grps/ pairs/ etc, but its still fine.

i don't exactly know what im uttering here, its kinda rubbishy, but its just that i sense a huge possibility of me being a loner (the kind thats lost touch w all of her past friends) 20 years down the road.

its possible you know. i sense the desire to be left alone especially big after holidays.
that's not all that bad.. right..?

2009-09-10T02:20:00.004+08:00

f(x)

heh i like the concept that they brought two chinese into a korean band!:D apparently victoria song and amber are chinese. and oh yeah sm was really smart in the way they packaged amber too. apparently she's like getting so many girls turning lesbo over her/ girl crushes and all hahahaha but eh! SHE IS PRETTY COOL HAHA. (watch the mv :DD)

D: they're all really young though D: except for victoria who's born in 1987.

like what.
amber is born in 1992.
luna is born on 12 aug 1993 (which means YES SHES YOUNGER THAN ME)
AND FREAK?!! SULLI AND KRYSTAL ARE BORN IN 1994?!!

argh and to think when i first saw krystal in the mv i was like heh shes really pretty is she 18 or something -.- NO THIS IS HORRIBLE D: we're gonna step into the paedo phase where we craze over ppl younger than usssss DDDD:

(oh ps dont get too shocked that amber's english is real good at the end rapping part. she IS half chinese half american afterall LOL)

2009-09-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

i officially conclude that ft cant really speak english LOL.

BUT AISH THEYRE SO CUTE NEVERTHELESS especially seunghyun. AHHH(: and whys hongki always wearing some kopitiam ahpeh clothes!D: you can tell frm the fancam that jonghyun's popularity is really high though HEH he sounded daaaamn _____ when he said "choijunghoon" AHHH. AHAHAHA

anw i managed to decipher what they're saying! HAHAA.

Jaejin: Hi Singapore, um, wait a minute. (...) oh.
Hongki: What's your name!
Jaejin: My name is... (thinks) LEE JAEJIN! yo~~ yeahh whats your name!
Hongki: My name is lee hongki.
Seunghyun: Oh, introduce myself?
Hongki: Yeah!
Jaejin: Go!
Seunghyun: ermm (tries to drag for more time) my name is.. what..?
Fans: LOL
Hongki: What's your name?
Jonghyun: (reaches for the mike) (my heart skips a beat) choijunghoon. (AHHHHHHHH)
Fans: (shift attn to minhwan whos hiding at the drums set there and start shouting MINHWAAAN MINHWAAAAN)

YOU CAN SEE MINHWAN'S SHOULDERS DROOP IN LIKE THE "EH THEY DIDNT FORGET ME AFTERALL?!DDD:" DESPAIR HAHAHAA. apparently he decided to do some drums thingum to escape from saying his name. which worked lol his fans went crazy.

Hongki: Minhwan is.. die! (haha i think he meant dead LOL)
Junghoon: Last song... last songg... last songg (drags for more time to rmb) (hongki prompts) (finally you see the lightbulb appear) LAST SONG, PRIMADONNA.

LOL I NEVER KNEW FT COULDNT SPEAK ENGLISH. cause dongbang can, and pretty well so to speak, i had the impression that it was required of all kpop bands/ppl to speak something other than korean xD

gosh this blog is turning into a fansite D:

2009-09-09T08:15:00.002+08:00

LOL THIS IS HILARIOUS. koped from kiayee's blog.

anw HAHA CAN YOU PLEASE LOOK AT KIMHYUNJOONG LAUGHING AT 0.14. ahahha.

at first when the host told the fangirl what that they're gonna look at each other for three secs she was like so lost and overwhelmed and khj looks to me like he has the LOOK, the kind that xinyi would give if zheng/ ang said something ridiculous in class xD

but honestly, being a star's gotta be amusing lol you get to see how your crazed fangirls look as though they're gonna rush home and tell everyone how this had been the bestest 3secs of their lives just cause they got to stare into your eyes LOL.

i wanna post my dance versions post heh. shall stop at 9am to get ready to go library for another day of mug session (till 9pm at night(:) i pretty much slacked ytd aish ITS A TABOO TO STAY AT HOME TO MUG FOR STEPH PANG MANZX. pretty much = one day wasted.

2009-09-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

I KNOW I SHOULD BE STUDYING BUT I WAS SMILING SO HARD I JUST COULDNT STOP AS I WATCHED THIS VIDEO. AHHH SO CUTE HAHAHAHA. ESPECIALLY SEUNGHYUN. NO WONDER EVERYONE IN THE BAND SAYS THAT SEUNGHYUN'S ALWAYS IN THE 16TH DIMENSION (in his own world). HAHAHAHA.

in any case for those who dont know seunghyun's the guy at 0.35 of the mv!:D

2009-09-06T11:46:00.002+08:00

pictures of you pictures of me; reminds us all of what we used to be

heh cant wait till after eoys i'd organize all the photos i have and send a huge portion of them for developing(:

i love looking back at photos. they tell you so much about what you've forgotten.

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(edit) aish. i utterly give up uploading photos via blogger. has been failing since forever. pft i think i shall switch from blogger to lj or xanga after eoys. so, xanga or lj? for lj im pretty much fine w it since many peeps have lj too but the thing is that its hard to LINK people in both xanga and lj (like what you do in blogger) right? and i dont like xanga/lj's comments thingum i prefer tagboards. and ps i prbly wont want xanga, most of the ppl whom i know have it are ppl im not close w -.-

2009-09-05T22:00:00.002+08:00

i hate blogger D: cant upload photos cause the uploading thing for blogger doesnt work. aish no wonder there're like so many ppl who switch from blogger to other stuffs these days.

i wanna blog, but pft blogger spoilt my blogging mood. go remove contacts, shall continue later i guess

2009-09-05T00:42:00.004+08:00

is it wrong to be direct? doubt so. but if i finally decide to stop holding back what i really want to say or criticize, i'll just end up unleashing the _____ side of me i guess.

i realized that people who are very direct are similar to bitches in some sense. well you see, these people openly voice their criticisms when they feel that something that disturbs them. bitches, on the other hand, have also met with incidents that hv disturbed them, cept that unlike the direct peeps, they're just a bunch of cowards who do not have enough courage to put the person down smack in front of that person's face, bottle their annoyance up, and thus end up unleashing all their unhappiness about them behind their backs.

i wonder if theres a group of third-types who meet w disturbing stuffs and really want to just snap at the person smack in her face, but hold back in the end cause the coward side of you just cant do it-- and when you are alone and think about it again you feel really pissed at yourself for not simply telling that person off, end up subconsciously coming up w a whole chunk of words that you really want to say to the person so as to let your unhappiness all out, and finally going 'but whats the point you cldnt bring yourself to say it just now anyways'. but you do feel better. //cause i'm one of them.

lol i think its kind of healthy being the third type. cause you basically blabber whatever you're pissed about/ want to tell that person off to some nonliving thing, like the air around you, the gigantic dolls on your bed, or in blogger as saved drafts and after doing this, you feel that your level of unhappiness has successfully receded by 75%. and i think its good too -- it stops you from turning into a bitch, since bitches are people who bottle up their unhappiness so much that its unhealthy, and when they finally get the chance, they'd turn a convo into a mass bitching session by starting w "ohh yeahh now i rmb! you know last time blahblahblah did this!"

and i think its scary. cause basically bitches are afraid of their own kinds too. its hard for anyone to feel fine when you turn into the target of bitching. but in any case, that wasnt my point.

sometimes when im alone and i think about it, i'd really have the temptation to just turn into the stephpang who openly shows her annoyance to people who have annoyed her. and i'd tell myself, okay from now on if im not happy i'll tell the person about what i feel, in a nice way, of course. like i'd tell my uncle that yes im in theatre but no i do not pull curtains for all four years of my theatre life. in fact, theres no need for you to pull the curtains now, theres technology to do it for you. i'd tell my cousin that i like her a lot, shes my favourite cousin, but if possible, would she stop coming to my grandmother's house only to put down whatevers that in my room, my dance videos, my everything, so to speak. especially with the word 'lame' because i've survived that era of life and it puts me on my toes or fingertips or however you say it to hear this word used by someone younger than me whos going through this current phase. i'd tell my mom that the reason why shes annoyed at my younger godbrother for publishing some caricature however you spell it of her photo on facebook is because it caused her to lose face, cause i know i'd be pissed for the same reason if my younger godbrother did the same for me. and that she does not have to hide this reason like its a shameless thing and come out w an excuse that her bosses have her facebook too, cause honestly, its a weak excuse-- bosses dont get emotional trauma or bad impressions of her because of lame stuffs like these -- and weak excuses put me off (though im guilty of them myself). and that basically if shes decided to get facebook thats what she can expect since these are really THE applications that facebook has to offer. i'd tell my aunt to stop going ehh your thigh really is getting bigger leh, cause honestly, though i brush it off with a hypocritical weak smile, yes it affects my ego. and that her daughter would possibly gain as much weight in two years time since i was as thin as her back when i was her age and no i do not think im fat now, its just fatter in comparison w people who havent even developed boobs. i'd tell my aunt to stop praising me about my work, cause though it sounds nice, theres always something underlying that makes the compliments seem so fake and that i have a fear of being bitched about as showing off my results behind my back, after seeing how all these aunts of mine talk about one another jokingly without one another knowing. i'd tell people i know, including myself, cause i do it all the time, that i think its weird how we try to consider about the feelings of the person we are ranting about by saying, no its not that person's fault its just that im in a bad mood now, when you (and me) know that we do have that pissed factor towards that person cause she did something to make you angry and the healthier way to rant is to just express ALL that you really feel. and yet, despite saying this, im guilty of doing this like 99.9999% of the time. so yes i'd like to tell myself to stop it too. yes they are all small, insignificant things. but its amazing how these insignificant things hv the ability of bottling up inside you to make you increasingly displeased if theres such a word about yourself, as well as these people around you. and its only by letting out that you can let things go, and i think that as psycho that it may sound, ranting in my blog/ to my stuffed toys/ etcetc, it helps me to forget about how pissed i am in a max of three days, and up till today, this side of me that im really glad i have, still exists.

but yet though, i wonder how some people would react if i were to really stand up and voice out what i think about them one day. and once again, like old times, i feel much better after ranting this whole chunk of words out, believe it or not i pretty much actually forgot the reason why i started this post anyways.

(:

2009-08-31T15:09:00.002+08:00

HELLO STEPHPANG'S SERIOUS MUGGING FOR EOYS STARTS NOW.

haha i shall swear upon erm my love for ft island and dbsk that chances of me procrastinating/ not doing useful mugging stuffs from now on shall be reduced by 70%! HAHAH. cause i have a feeling that i'd still procrastinate, gosh. -.-

OKAY, NERD ALERT!:D

ps oh no my favourite picture of hongki is not gonna be what i first see when i come to my blog anymore :(

today was awesome(: 203.

2009-08-30T16:26:00.004+08:00

haha you know i was thinking if i should post another post about them cause i found lots of ft island pictures. then i was like but if i post another post then this photo of hongki wont be the first thing i see when i come to my blog anymore!

HAHA SO SMART ME DECIDED OOOH I SHALL JUST POST THIS PHOTO AGAIN, PROBLEM SOLVED HAHAHAHA.

HONGKI'S SO CUUUUTE RIGHT! AHHHHHH (SQUEALS x987654321)

haha oh wells actually jaejin is cute too my pretty boy kind of guy BUT EHH. HONGKI's LOVELIER HAHAHA. jaejin would have to settle for being my second fave in that band then!:DD

and hahahahaha junghoon:DD i finally found out who the guy in the heaven mv who acted as the girl's boyfriend was hahaha he's cute too rigggghtt:DD

actually, their whole band is! hahaa so uber duber cuteeee:DDD i like them as much as DBSK noww;D went to mass download their songs; shall download their mvs in the 3gp form tonight so that i can put them in my handphone:DDD

and oh yeahh shall go download hongki wallpapers now HAHAHAHA.

(EDIT) oh myy why the poop did they remove the w3teacher free account D: i have so many ft island pics that i want to print noww D:

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saturday 29 august 09

haha i loved today:DD no actually i love all saturdays hahahaha. jazz is basically turning into a hiphop class now, with hardly any stretching, only some kicks and leaps and yeahhh the rest of the time we're doing routines which are like really hiphopish and learning techniques like moonwalk, arm waves, body rolls etc!

AHAHA EVEN THOUGH MY MOONWALK STILL KINDA SUCKS SOMETIMES, HEYYY I CAN DO A MOONWALK NOWWW:DDDD

and yeah i really liked the routines too i spent my bus ride back from jazz cats jotting down all the steps for both routines:D hahaha and besides, daniel's really good:DDD oh but poo's not coming for jazz next week onwards thoughD: poof so now would get to spend even lesser time w poo; unless we both get into mad of course! poo lets work harddd kayy hahaha. hm no on second thoughts im the one who needs to work hard -.- most of the dancers frm nygh would most prb get into mad anw D:

anw haha after jazz went to starbucks to study for two hours:DD hmm quite productive, had greentea frapp again, which sent me to the toilet 6 times in 2hrs afterwards -.- cause since young i've always been bad at taking too much of sweet stuffs. thats why i didnt exactly like sweets that much back when i was young and till now im still not that addicted to super sweet stuffs either :O oh gosh im a weird kid. hahaha

and then HIPHOP at dancepointe! its so lovely okay its like basically TWO hiphop lessons in one day. did the bigbang lollipop routine and haha its either because of the band or because of the fact that i had two dance classes in one day; i was really happy even after the class:DD

aww having two dance classes in one saturday makes steph a happy girl.

yepp:D happier than eating three consecutive icecreams in one go:DD

2009-08-30T10:46:00.004+08:00

HII thanks to yimeng i got to know about F.T. island and AHH I LIKE THEM HAHAHA. hongki's so cutee (pokes the first picture) and he's only three years older than me hahahaa. and jaejin's really cute too :O squeals hahahaha.

oh and i love their mvs so nice so nice omggg :D

zz gosh im turning my blog into some fangirl site D:

and hahaha i loved their heaven mv x3 shall put here so that its easier for me to view next time wheee:D but idk whos the guy in the first mv who was the girl's boyfriend though D: he's really cute too. actually, almost all of them aree hahahaa.

2009-08-29T11:01:00.001+08:00

D: so sad D:D:D:

2009-08-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

thursday 27aug09 (soccer/lunch bball/ 203)

blogs are pretty superficial; i guess the understanding that ppl are gonna read your blog and yet you wouldnt know who the person is cause theres no way to track it stops you from expressing what you really feel on your blog. cause letting ppl know of what you really feel, regardless of whether they're happy or sad feelings, is a pretty much naked feeling sometimes.

so well yeah, despite having typed a whole chunk of words abt pe and lunch bball which i couldnt bring myself to post and thus deleted them, i shall just say that thursday was nice because of ploty as a whole, and also jie and yeah, chelly(:

//and im glad i chatted w chelly on msn the other time. simply having someone to talk to is a nice thing cause i guess blabbering things out instead of bottling them up made me feel pretty much lighter and i feel like a happier person now(:

//im also glad im spending more time w jie these few days too(: idk how to put it, but yeah its just nice((:

//eoys are coming. and eoys09 are pretty much the telltale signs of the end of our nanyang lives. i was looking forward to graduating to jc initially, like a few months back. but after what ppl ve been telling me all this while, what should i do, i think im scared of hwachong. im scared of next year.

friday 28aug09

3 icecreams in a row makes steph a happy girl for the entire day(:

2009-08-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

zomg i think i've finally found someone in a band other than DBSK that i like HAHAHA. but JAEJOONG STILL COMES FIRST THOUGH. *O* awww. but anw CHOIMINHO. OMG HAHAHAA. its kinda amazing how i actually got to know about him.

i was actually planning to download the song 'sorry' (on chelly's blog) from 4shared but the search results gave me sorry sorry by suju instead, which i decided to watch the mv since i saw the kids from dancepointe hiphop do the dance ytd. and then i scrolled down to see the youtube comments and saw the name donghae so i decided to check out on him since the last time i did a facebook suju quiz i rmb i got him as a result and he looked pretty good.

haha so yeah i went to youtube 'donghae' and i got some minho and donghae confession result instead. so i clicked on that video thinking minho was leeminho but ended up to be some random minho making a confession to donghae. and since donghae was from suju i thought minho was too so i went to google minho suju and the google thing asked me were you looking for minho shinee LOL.

anw AWW WATCH THIS VIDEO WATCH THIS VIDEO its prolly what made me start liking choi minho HAHAHA.

AHH CAN YOU PLEASE LOOK AT THE PART WHERE MINHO AND DONGHAE ARE HUGGING. AHHHHHHH I NEVER KNEW GUYS COULD BE SO ADORABLE D:

2009-08-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

haha yes blogger really hates me i wanted to dedicate a birthday post to leesilei but blogger doesnt let me upload pics grrr haha.

talking to chelly today somehow made me feel a wholeload lighter(: and then looked at bigbird's photos and read a really inspiring manga which i didnt like at first but turned out really good and poof im motivated to idk smile now(:

okay i'll go bathe and then i'd start w learning tingxie. and then erm drawing two graphs. and finally chinese lecture. i basically slacked today. jyjy(:

i'll try to appreciate all my friends more now. there aint much time left.

2009-08-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

ew i hate hotmail. actually i hate blogger too. these two sites have been crashing on me like for 987654321 times since last month? D:

anw today daniel came in to teach us jazz. hmm a really REALLY tall australian (i think) guy and haha i like his lessons, though apparently poo doesnt hehh:D cause basically it changed from jazz to hiphop and he taught us v technical stuffs like moonwalk and other footwork for hiphop stuffs. which were nice I LIKE HAHAHAHA. he tried getting us to split into two groups for freestyle danceoffs too which seemed really cool cept that cept for mackenzie and adam the rest of us were too shy to freestyle so hehhhh. i like it though and geez i feel bad for him too haha. majority of the class had the blank/ seemingly bored look throughout the lesson majorly cause we couldnt catch how to do the stuffs like moonwalk etc/ (for nicole's reason) she didnt sweat/ (for poo's reason) she prefers jazz better.

heh i realised that different ppl turn out liking dance for different reasons :O

im looking forward to next week's lesson though:DDD

***

i dont like people who try to influence others to follow their decisions just because the decision the others have made are not what he/she wanted. they say a whole bunch of crap and all in all they're just trying to get you to agree to what they feel, instead of what you feel. n ng is like that; so are zheng and ajl; even t and c are; and now even p.

no on second thoughts its not that i dont like it. its just that i detest it. people who think that they can alter what i have decided on irritate me the most. urgh.

***

hiphop was funn hahahah WE DID KOREAN SONG. HEH. lollipop by bigbang if im not wrong. but it was hard phew D: heh but i liked it:D

oh i wore ploty tee to hiphop and jazz today HAHAHA. but i felt like a mobile sun though D: SO BRIGHT SO BRIGHT OMG hehhehheh:DD

***

i wonder how the jazz comps went.

2009-08-22T06:58:00.000+08:00

EEKS I DONT HAVE CC2 NOTES AND THE TEST IS ON TUES HOWHOWHOW D:

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todays supposed to be the jazz competition day.

2009-08-09T19:34:00.001+08:00

took hiphop lessons for probably the first time yesterday at dance factory. was pretty nervous/ uncertain about it at first, with my mum trying to brainwash me at home that i don't suit hiphop im more of a jazz/ flexibility person and that was hee sadly pretty much true D: i've watched myself dance hiphop before and it was like puii terrible. oh wells but i guess there's always a first time.

thought back about how horrible i was when i first started jazz at jazz cats last year (i couldnt even do a proper jette (split leap) and i looked like a crab trying to gallop or something. but oh wells lookie im much better at it now, and it made me think that theres always a first time to everything, so i decided to just give dancefact. a try too.

but the point that i didnt know anyone there, which was pretty much sucky back during the workshop since everyone knew everyone and i was just sitting in a corner playing my ds while waiting for the workshop to start like an autistic child hahahaha. (nicole [jazz one] said that she cant picture this side of me HAHAHA) oh and was like slacking and camwhoring and crapping with my dear bestie after jazz ytd for one and a half hour at starbucks and i was trying to ask her to brainwash me that hiphop class would be finee.

haha but turned out that SIMYANYING takes the same hiphop class as me there which is like 100% unexpected LOL. haha i've always known that she takes ballet since her flexibility is really good too and zzz i almost wanted to murder her during election day when she was doing her center split which i thought improved alot and ZZ BECAUSE JAZZ STOPPED FOR THE TERM I STOPPED STRETCHING HAHAHA. (anw! back to topic!)

haha the entire routine that jacky taught us was like manageable and easy to catch and stuff, like far easier than i thought. the one he did during workshop was much harder and i could just catch bits and pieces of it and i was worried it would be as hard in the beg class but turned out fine oohlala ^^ (prolly cause the song's beat is like v strong and esp good for ppl like me w absolutely no sense of rhythmn:D) haha it was fun all in all; (the dance especially haha its kinda catchy) and the whole class being fun and stuff was something i didnt expect and hee im glad!:D

oh but! AHH as it has been 16 years ago ever since i was born, my left/right hand coordination still suuccckk HAHAHAHA.

***

oh ying (the new replacement teacher for jazz cats whos nineteen this year) taught us her own routine ytd too and haha i think i like it too. ehheh i thought some of the dance moves were really cool and its quite amazing that she and her friends could come out w such a (not say extremely) but pretty nice routine for their tchers day performance hee:DD

i love sats now its like dance and more dance i can just fly to the skies in happiness whee:D somehow everytime after dance i'd feel really bubbly and stuff and start skipping even on my way home (which in another sense is pretty embarrassing oh my D:)

***

oh and its pretty amazing how when you least expect something to be interesting and all it turns out to be really fun and amazing. and yet when you expect alot from something sometimes all you get is disappointment.

take the jazz comps for example, i guess. expected so much from it. as in not expected to win but expected to have so many fun extra rehearsals and pracs and stuffs before it and trying on our dance costumes that melissa designed for us and idk just having the fun of dancing more than just once a week. and i guess i was using this jazz comps to encourage me to survive BT2.

but then poof now what melissa's in the hospital (her waterbag burst or smthng which is really serious gosh D: like her baby's not due till 3 or 4 months later?) and ying doesnt know a thing about the dance and the comps are like what. 12 days away, where? nanyang girl's high school auditorium. and will we be there? obviously not. i've alrdy scraped the idea from my mind/ scraped the jazz comps reminder off my calendar//// ah wells. theres always next time :( yet its still v disappointing though. thought i could take part in this comp or smthng before trying for MAD next year. (no link i know but haha whateverr)

***

ermhrm but thinking in a more positive way, since when you least expect things to happen, they happen; does that mean that i might get into mad after all since i don't expect that i'd get in? HAHA. ah wells, in any case,

i'll try my best:D

***

// SIDE NOTES:

CAN YOU BELIEVE, FREAKING BELIEVE IM THE OLDEST IN JAZZ CLASS D: how can indie/ adam/ mackenzie/ teresa ETC LOOK SO MATURED AND YET ARE IN ACTUAL FACT YOUNGER THAN MEEE D: (cries D:) ah wells. at least poo/ indie/ adam are all sixteen. but in terms of months im still older. OH MAI I FEEL LIKE AN OLD HAGG D:

oh a guy stopped me at the bus interchange after hiphop class on sat night. those survey guys for m1 or stuff.

guy: hello. are you working or still a student?
steph: student. (about to walk off since i know that these ppl target adults for surveys etc, not students)

BUT

guy: oh(: so where do you study?
steph: er. nanyang.
guy: erm nanyang poly?
steph: ..no; girls high. sec four.
guy: (eyes widen and stifles a laughter) oh GIRLS HIGH? nvm thankyou.

eeeehhhhh WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN HUH. his tou xiao look was damn qian bian. argh nvm i shall accept the fact that i prolly look like an old hag D: zzzzzz.

2009-08-08T09:24:00.002+08:00

kbox w tinymagnets/rsvp yesterday sparked me to re-download all (almost all) the chinese songs that i've had back in lower sec and deleted in sec three. i wonder what sparked me to delete them anyways. the lack of memory space in my computer? or the pressure of the need to change now that i'm in upper sec?

in any case, im happy im getting these songs back. its a fuzzy feeling listening to jjlin, liang jing ru, angela zhang, rainie yang, guang liang and other songs like gu dan bei ban qiu/ etc back again((:

its kinda silly now that i think about it, to be so easily influenced my friends into deciding what i like. it seems like what i like is basically what they like now and its not exactly a flattering feeling eh.

im just glad kbox ytd sparked me to stop being so easily influenced// get back the things that once made me me(:

2009-08-08T07:49:00.001+08:00

lovedubs x3

2009-08-07T00:53:00.005+08:00

looking back at old photos lets me understand that memories are really wonderful things.

yet the saddest thing about them is that memories would always stay memories, and

things would never replay again

2009-07-30T22:27:00.002+08:00

if i could choose a superpower, i'd wanna be able to track down all the things (and maybe people) that i've lost. i admire my ability to lose stuffs haha and point is that i dont even notice that they're gone o.O oh wells.

anws its not advisable for me to keep photos in thumbdrives at all -.- kept the scarlet pics bethoong sent me and ningbo pics in thumbdrive and thus pretty much lost them all -.- thank goodness most of the ningbo pics that i've lost are scenery pics. phew.

2009-07-30T17:30:00.006+08:00

hii im finally posting after -- well; forever. hahaa! today was amazing, 203'07 went for our teacher's day audition and sang that familiar song that we've once sung three years ago, back when it was still our first year in nanyang. seems like time passes so fast, and before we know it, is our last year in nanyang already, our last time to do something meaningful together as a class.

oh wells. i cried today at the auditions. didn't want to cry, didn't think i'd cry. but then when i heard the speech it was like so touching i just couldn't help it. i was expecting the speech to be something cliche about wanting to do something as a class tgt before graduating etc (which i thought was really cool as well) but it was just pretty unexpected when yanquan read out the script, which mentioned about how zzc wasnt around the last time we performed (for him) back in sec one, and thus, three years later, here we are again, wanting to show him how much we appreciate him.

it was like all of a sudden, there was this "oh yeah" feeling inside me. i've totally forgotten about how zzc wasnt around back during tchers day in sec one. in fact, i've forgotten about lots of stuffs. but trust 203 to be always the ones who do all these sweet unexpected stuffs. i totally didnt expect anyone to suggest coming together as twothree ohseven back again to perform for teachers day. i didn't expect to see so many emails from different people in class discussing about teachers day/ giving ideas/ saying they will come for auditions. i didn't expect so many people to turn up. tues' break? 23 out of 33 of us turn up. talk about sweetness. when i saw all the different familiar faces that i've been so used to seeing since my first year in nanyang coming towards the place we were supposed to meet i just felt so happy to be a part of 203; they've given me so many awesome memories over the past few years.

i guess i was just to used to 409's nonchalent attitude, where the only things we possibly do together as a class are ponning activities and being bored in class and idk. treat school events like rubbish. funfair with 309, racial harmony with 409, cny decos, etc etc were nothing but failures and all i possibly did was look enviously at other classes do awesome stuffs like having awesome stalls (henna/haunted houses/ etcetc) and dress up in ethnic costumes together as a class. and yet people like me/ploty/almost everyone else in class are like acting totally uncooperative when yunxingrandma discusses abt all these stuffs w us in pccg etc.

and when people like jennifer, the few enthusiastic ppl in class suggest some stuffs you can hear people like jelly etc snickering at what she says as though she doesnt know she's being snickered at and stuffs like that, and what some people in class (including ploty) know how to do is just rejecting the ideas people suggest, despite not suggesting any at all. its like waiting for suggestions to be fed to you; and yet rejecting them like you're some cool big thing. but who am i to say anyways. im just one of those majority of the class who don't do anything nice for our class. and im just one of those who prefer to keep quiet when people are being snickered at/ being bitched about.. i guess i just don't feel like it. i guess i just moved on. i guess i just accepted the fact that 409 should just remain like this. if no one cared, didn't see the point in caring too. saw how people like jenni/ witchie/ grandma have been trying fruitlessly to make our class participate in stuffs and yet just failed miserably. so whats the point?

i'm pretty much sure when i graduate from nygh and step into jc, i'll probably lose contact with majority of the people in 409 like in just a short span of a month's time. it's like; 409 is merely a group of 30 (31 including me) people whom i see everyday, thats all.

in any case, thank you 203. for giving me awesome memories back in sec one and sec two, making them probably the bestest years of my life in nanyang. and thank you, for letting me do something meaningful as a class w you guys for the last time before we leave nanyang. thank you for suggesting this lovely tchers day performance as an awesome way to wrap up 20307's life in nanyang. or i might have just left nanyang with nthng more but the memories of 409 ponning school activities.

oh and lastly, thankyou for proving to me that the '203 will live forever, we'll celebrate it every year' line in our 103 class song, and our 'the spirit in us never dies' line in the 203 class song are not just empty words/ promises. i have always thought that no matter how lovely 203'07 had been in the past, after we move on to upper sec things would never be the same anymore and we would never do all these sweet stuffs that we've always been doing together anymore. like apologising to zzc as a class during that rare time that he flared at us, by making cards and stuffs. and sitting together at the back of the class during the last day of school singing the class song etc. and creating cheers like bob the builder and hohohoha and two class songs. and also singing the class songs after choral and drama night and stuffs like that.

i thought that 203's lovely sweet and unexpected acts would stop once sec3 started and we all were split up to diff classes, but apparently it didnt and no matter what, im just really really glad that we are doing this tchers day thing together as a class back again. i hope we'll pass the second audition as well, so that we'll really be able to go onstage and touch zzc with our lovely 203 bond/spirit.

i've really felt the real care that certain 203ers had for one another back in sec one and two and nothing i've experienced in 309/409 can ever match up to that. and heh, yes, now that i think about it i've cried a lot because of 203. but cant help it. like today when we were singing the song at the audition in front of our 203'08 juniors-- watching so many of us do this together, its just so touching and goosepimply haha.

i love twothree(:
like a blazing fire the spirit in us never dies.

***

two songs haha. if we hold on together by diana ross (tune for sec 1 class song) and my love by westlife (tune for sec 2 class song :DDD)

(edit) three songs haha. kiss goodbye by wang lee hom (tune for you know what hahaaa)

2009-07-14T21:56:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD. oh man oh man look at this page its scary its scaring me out zomg.

and to think i used to think oh man those girls are so cute. its like quite unbelievable how some (no.. maybe ALOT) of makeup can do to change someone's appearance. ah wells wont go and try it though imagine the amount of time she'd have to dump in to wash her face every night to remove the makeup. thinking about it makes me tired alrdy. but ohman still, go see it :O

http://members.asianbeautyblog.com/entry/Incandescent/64123-Ulzzang-Makeup-Magic.html

2009-07-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

oh man dongbang obsession these days idk why! anw came across this video haha fast forward to 1:03 zomg some interviewee was doing a road interview and he happened to interview jaejoong and his girlfriend (during the period of time before jaejoong's debut) hahaha!:D

ahhh shitzx have to do some pauls wheel and ih now zomg. byee

2009-07-09T23:50:00.004+08:00

i know tablemates won't kill me for just wasting 10 minutes of my time away blogging. i need something to distract me to stay awake now.

ohh been wanting to post these pics for quite some time hee:D yuanci/ bingxu and ___ oops i forgot her name :O taiwan exchange students hee!(: everyone's into the taiwan exchange students craze now woohoo haha. tiny and i and a group of us even went to find zhenglaoshi today and ask if we could volunteer for a shanghai buddy cause we really want one. but was pretty depressed to find out that the school would rather assign 6 freaking shanghai kids to 410 than to just spare 3 for our class D: i really want a buddy you know. it might be silly, but i really want to just make this buddy feel welcome just like how ningbo 108ers made netto chelly and i so happy netto and i even cried the night before leaving ningbo. sighs. and im quite sure that if its me/tiny/chelly we'd be able to be v hospitable to the buddy cause (i wont dare to say that about anyone else) but with chelly and tiny around i always seem to naturally get high and fun and yeaah i want a buddy urgh urgh Dx

i like these few days(: class has been fun, funny(: haha chelly and netto are teaching me korean and not only me hmm tiny jojo and jeanie are learning too hee!:D its so amusing talking in (lousy) korean in class hahahaha. and so fun also i really am having fun so i guess thats really great(: oh and i'll go rewrite my korean notes just for jojo tiny and jeanie once i get the time (which means ih and history sia and history sbq gone POOF) heee cause i promised theemmm:DDD

oh and i found that i am able to communicate with some people a little better these few days. as in to certain people. which is good. i mean, i usually appreciate people who are naturally able to make me talk easily to them, and not like face some internal struggle of trying to dig up topics to talk so as to kill the awkward atmosphere when im with them. i mean, for like 95% of the people i know its like this, i have like practically nothing to talk to them, no matter how close i appear to be to them. its like idk. sometimes i would just naturally try to avoid having eye contact w ppl so that they would get the hint and not come and talk to me cause i expected them to know very well that i prefer to keep to myself rather than smile and squeeze out a topic to chat about with much constipation.

but the point is that, i found that i managed to talk to some people these days really easily, and its a nice, light kind of feeling. as in you dont realize it. you just talk and talk and talk and by the time you stop talking you are speechless because you realize that you've just managed to have a long conversation with someone without having to think up of things to say. its so natural and nice(: it makes me really happy for like the rest of the day too hahaha idk its just a great great feeling.

***

i'm sorry for moodswings. i really don't have the energy to do anything anymore. haven't been sleeping for three nights already. im totally wiped out.

someone save me.

2009-07-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

zomg this is retardly hilarious haha. adding on to my stupid collection of videos that were supposed to be photos zz. and everyone's silly reactions everytime they realize that "omg im taking a video!" hahaha:D

taiwan people last day today T.T which is sad, considering that i like seeing them around school it makes school seem that much more interesting than normal. cause idk. having them around makes me feel like im back in ningbo zhenhai and stuff and how those 108ers welcomed the three of us and stuffs like that. which is nice:D

oh wells snagged photos with the three taiwan exchange students from our class who turned out that they wanted photos as well zomg they never really take w our class which is v sad since we've basically left them in a corner ever since they came! D: ohwells but i know they're fun people though.

pe w them and ppl i hardly hung out with like feiya zhuoya ziai jennifer etc turned out to be really awesome, i laughed real hard, and i felt real great. gosh. i was having fun. i think its like how michelle felt when she blogged about pig family and the adv lit class gathering thingy at stella's house. its the same kind of awesome feeling(:

i'll post photos in the next post-- oh just to add.

i'm super in love with my photos zomg *O* they're really clear and all, better than my own camera and i can just keep viewing and viewing those three pics i took today with my c902 and not get sick of it(:

2009-07-04T02:36:00.004+08:00

ohmygod this is unbelievably sexy :O i wonder how many rehearsals they had to go through to be able to dance like that.

ohmannnnn im like watching it over and over and over and over again.

and i'd give anything to be able to dance like that D:

(edit: oh did i mention that im utterly amazed at how well they travel to change their arrangements? damn smooth. zomg. and the chorus is stuck in my headdddd)

2009-07-04T01:48:00.004+08:00

just decided to update a post cause of ploty hoodie hee(: was v happy today cause it was pretty fun deciding on the hoodie stuffs. like at first in class chelly and i drew out the ugly out of shape long armpits hoodie template and chelly designed on it and then passed it around.

then when it got passed back, one whole group of us - netto silei tiny chelly me hmm who else? ranie, claire.. yepyep we were like discussing what to put in front and behind and all, and when i looked at the whole group of us discussing i was like awww so sweet(: cause it is hees(: everyone contributing ideas and stuffs:D then at the com lab and other places like even the hall o.O (chelly tiny they all were like shooting hoops and then discussing at the same time ahahah) yepp and jellylee stayed back during lunch to try out designing online w me hahahaa

didnt want to buy the hoodie at first cause i needed i zipped hoodie like crazy, not a pullover. but oh wells. realised from how tiny/chelly/ploty were discussing that its not the matter of im-buying-a-hoodie-cause-i-need-one but more of; its something to rmb ploty by(: hee so decided on getting it in the end. oh wells who cares abt extra money needed to buy another zipped jacket; i'll just save and save and save.

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sometimes its things like these that make me so happy that i have friends like them(:

hmm next year when plotys gone and stuffs like that, i guess i'll make myself remember only the nice times we've had together(: oh and chelly i know you'll see this post hee:D thanks; and to tiny tooo hahaha for being the main designers of ploty hoodie alrights!:D

***

taiwan students hee(: watching them makes me think back to the time i had in ningbo and honestly, nostalgia aside, and well, happiness cause they're here and they're really cute people; i feel bad. its like back in ningbo our class was so nice, friendly, and well, they pretty much made an effort to include us.

but here its like when they first came we gave them claps after ang told us to do so, and then the whole class went back to what they were originally doing before clapping. and then like yeahh basically during some lessons they were just sitting there and no one bothered to go talk to them, except now for some prcs and peeps like feiya ziai zhuoya.

and taiwanese aside, like for daddy's birthday today ang told us to sing birthday song for daddy. which was -.- normally in twothree it would have been someone like me/linghan/ a whole group of us -- sandy, tabby, tung etc deciding that we shall start the birthday song for blahblah and then start singing and the whole class joins in. not the teacher whos the one trying to create the mood.

and besides, the birthday songs we sang in 203 (or probably for any other class) are loud and happy and all, but the kind that our class sang isnt any much louder than the taiji music that old people do taiji to. its like singing for the sake of singing and stuff idk i felt like bleargh. cause cheering after that only a few people like feiya/maddie/jenni only too and sometimes i wonder if they'd feel awkward that they're the only ones doing that/ wish that the class would just join in and cheer. cause i do.

and stuffs like chelly trying to clap when mr ang said sing for jojo (isit?) yah then its common sense for people to pick up claps but oh wells apparently for the first time ever i witnessed how a clap dies off because everyone were stuck in their little own worlds doing their little own stuffs :(

and sometimes it makes me feel bad when xinyi/yunxin are like up there trying to get something settled and our class is just so, not classy. and you know you basically see them breaking into headaches at the front of our class right before our eyes.

i like fournine as in they're nice, and i like the individual ppl in our class for who they are, but to speak the truth, i won't say that oh man i don't want to leave fournine at the end of this year leh and stuffs like that because i just dont feel a love for fournine as a class at all. and that alone is depressing because before i started sec three, i never knew how someone can possibly bear to leave a class at the end of two years. cried for twothree after choral drama night/ after last day of school; but i doubt i'll do the same for fournine at all. i mean, what is there to cry? i doubt i'd feel a surge of emotions when we graduate, since we were barely a class at all.

***

ah wells nvm who am i to say im one of those majority ppl who dont participate actively in class at all. but the point is, i dont see the point anymore.

2009-07-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

i got you ~ under my skin

dongbang songs are addictive. haha. and watching their MVs and them giving their all makes me want to give my 100% too.

DBSK x3

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not going update for some time now. nothing much to blog about anyways, its just school, and everyday is like a clone of the previous day. oh wells. im still planning on giving my all though(: gogogo

2009-06-30T20:42:00.001+08:00

its been a long day. im exhausted.

school is pretty useless, since the only thing that i'd probably ever learn from it is that lessons are really dreadful and subjects are really boring.

2009-06-28T01:39:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA i've never been a big fan of micky yoochun, but just jaejoong and dongbang in general; but THIS IS HILARIOUS. HAHAHA laura gave me the url and i went to watch and almost died laughing. SO CUTE HAHAHA. all the silly stuffs xD watch it watch it! hee anyone who likes dong bang:D

oh yeah almost forgot. i found pics of boys over flowers F4 cast when they were young hahaha:D shall post em tmr or something. wanted to sleep early today after seeing eyebags for the first time in my whole life. okay maybe last time i had eyebags too but this is the first time i've noticed mine cause they've gotten hugenormous after countless of days of sleeping at 4/5am because i was watching goong.

computer cd player spoiled -- only way to watch shows (not online. online quality not always gd) is in living room -- living room = family around = annoyance -- thus steph is forced to watch her shows past midnight when her family has gone to slp so as to avoid being annoyed.

which is sad considering that those shows which used to be merely as entertainment for me during lunch or dinner like you know play the cd on the computer and watch it while eating? yah but ZZZ. now i have nothing to do at dinner other than ds and other stuffs and i have to risk super severe eyebags.

oh wells shall make sure this doesnt happen often anymore because if it does i might really turn into an uglier than ugly hag :(

still have tonnes of cds that i happily bought frm vietnam thinking that i can watch them in the comfort of my room but oh wells seems kinda impossible now. at least for those cds i'll sleep at like 8pm at night and wake up at 3am or something to watch them(: SMART STEPH. HAHA HOHO.

okay BYE:D

2009-06-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

in three simple words,
i miss skating

saved the two old posts as drafts cause just didnt feel right letting anyone i don't know read my rants and stuffs. oh wells. hmm went to jp just now to walk around though with 50bucks in my hand. wanted to buy a bagpack and a waterbottle. but to my surprise i didnt spend the 50 bucks at all. haha shall save up and get them only when im going to jc. or else i'd be super sick of them by next year i think i'll go spend money buying those stuffs again.

shall put the hoodie jacket on hold first since idk if ploty is getting a ploty jacket. cause if they are then i dont see a point in getting a hoodie jacket anymore. but i doubt they are though. *we.

saw the actor shaun chen (?) at jp. is that his name? oh wells michelle chia's husband. haha taller than i thought! i guess tv makes ppl look short :O oh wells shall stop this post.

2009-06-22T18:01:00.002+08:00

HELLO haha i can't stand the vietnam post anymore when im like back for dunno how long alrdy so i shall just update(:

don't feel like typing much now though! shall blog next time! oh yeah i bought damn lots of pirated cds from vietnam hahahaha:D

Movies:
1. The Secret of Moonacre
2. Bride Wars
3. High School Musical 3
4. 17 Again
5. Night at the Musuem
6. Night at the Musuem 2
7. Bedtime Stories
8. 27 Dresses
9. Spectacular
10. The Duchess (OMG its the one i said i wanted to watch!:D)
11. He's just not that into you
12. Hannah Montana Keeping It Real
13. Hannah Montana The Movie
14. Finding Nemo 2
15. Thumbelina
16. Wild Child

at only $1 per cd! HAHAHA:D

Dramas:

1. Boys Over Flower Full Set (to rewatch next time hahaha!) $6++
2. Mei Chan No Shitsuji (jap show! looks v nice:D) $4++

and their quality v good v good! WHEE HAHA(;

kay end of update cause im lazy to type anymore. BYE:D

oh ps; you should go watch "tada, kimi wo aishiteru" online! hahahaha v nice show:D

2009-06-11T21:20:00.013+08:00

VIETNAM

till 17 June

HELLO AWESOMENESS

2009-06-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

its because of times like this
and this

and especially this

that makes me understand that i really do love my friends a lot. and i'll give anything to maintain this joyful equilibrium. i've thought things through and next semester shall be a better one(:

sometimes giving up not neccessarily means that you'll lose something.

2009-06-08T22:25:00.004+08:00

SATURDAY 6 JUNE

SHOPPING WITH POO

haha sat was really fun/ tiring! oh wells! met with my dear piece of shit at jurong point in the morning cause pooleejiawen wanted to tour jurong point! and haha so cute idk how to describe the bus thing but basically her bus suddenly appeared beside mine on the road when we were reaching jurong point and the traffic light was red! haha! and we were like O.O! at each other.

haha oh wells i dropped my dear hotpink water bottle a while after WHICH IS SO SAD its the prettier colour that i have! D: the purple one is quite dull and boring alrdy zzz T.T but couldnt find it even though poo and i traced like the original path that we walked T.T

haha i wanted to go look at clothes in shops like valerie etc at first but i didnt know if poo wanted so we just went to look at those misc shops at first and silly poo went to do an express manicure which was really cheap (but zzz i dont like the girl who did the manicure for poo, as in it was rather badly done she must have like slipshot-ed her way through it cause she thought we were kids) PFT.

hmm then were about to leave for jazz at around 1pm alrdy but poo wanted to go see valerie so haha we went in. and haha my dear wife takes uber long to change clothes i think i should carry a portable bed everytime i go out with her! but haha in the end she bought a black and white combi top which i thought was not bad quite nicee:D

and i didnt want to spend money at firstttt hahahaha BUT OHMAN I SAW THIS HAT AND I LIKED IT ALOT CAUSE IT LOOKED SO NICE ON THE DUMMY (YOU KNOW THE MODELS IN THE SHOP. THE NONLIVING ONES) and hahahah i tried it on and YES ITS NICE. i bought the other colour though. the lighter one, though the one on the model's head was like black. HAHA WAIT I TOOK PHOTOS WITH IT SHALL UPLOAD IT LATER. HAHAHA LOVEDUBS.

oh and its quite worth it. cause supposed to be $19.80 but 10% so it was $17.90..? yeah.

then went for jaaaaazzzz hahaha spartanic people like us camwhored our way there:D OH YEAH OH YEAH hello look at the photo above. ISN'T IT SOOO OBVIOUS THAT MY EYES ARE BIGGER THAN HERS!:DD ~~okay fine no they're not~~ HAHA we were both trying to make our eyes look as huge as possible though xD EEKS i used to have lovely big eyes when i was young D: why do my eyes look so small nowwwww T.T

JAZZ

was LOVELY. hahaha. we weren't late even though i predicted that we would have been hahaha so we went to buy drinks first. oh yeah I SHALL REMEMBER THAT I OWE POO MONEY I SHALL CHANT THIS 3 TIMES EVERY DAY.

JAZZ JAZZ JAZZ. hmm there were 8 of us there on sat, and we're trying to get 10 for our dance competition but they were saying that sam's going back to australia so nope shes not taking part and renata hurt her leg (and can you believe her doctor told her no jazz/acrobats because her leg's injured but tap is fine?! like O.O tap uses SOLELY or almost solely the LEGS. at least jazz and acrob you can use your hands and stuffffff. the doctor is WEIRD)

oh anyways haha so cute we had dance-offs which were really funny hahhaaha. nicole poo matilda (new girl in this class. havent spoken to her much but i think i like her hahaha cause she likes purple:D:D:D like seriously she had purple streaks on her hair when she came to class the other time and still has them except they're fading off now and her nails are purple too ahahhaa:D and she seems nice:D)

and indie elijah teresa and mackensie made the other half and haha it was pretty fun cause we got to familiarize ourselves with the dance and have fun at the same time xD idk how to blog about stuffs like these i think its cooler if you've had it down on video or something as in its something nice that you caant describe hahaha:D

moved on to the LOW part though T.T which i tell you i cant really catch. as in for the timberland release one im fine i can even rmb but i canttttt for LOW and they're doing it NEXT WEEK = I'M NOT THERE CAUSE OF VIEEETTNAMM T.T cries. oh wells i'll tape down the dance on the last lesson so that i can prac at home i swear:D

VALERIE HAT

OH YEAHH HAHAHA THE CAP I BOUGHT WHEN SHOPPING W POO AT VALERIE. I LIKE HAHAHAA. AWESOME AWESOME RIGHT! AND HAHA I TOTALLY ADORE IT BECAUSE OF THE PHOTO BELOW. my eyes look bigger/ as though theres eyeliner on cause of the shadow the hat cast HAHA SO WHEEEEE x3

im like so bringing it to vietnam to ~~shield me from the vietnam macholy strong sun~~ camwhore with it HEHHEHHEH:D oh but seriously im looking forward to vietnam! i think it'll be coool(:(: and lotsa shopping and stuffs. at least i wont be some grumbly kid like back in bali haha! im looking forward to buying stuffs too!:DDD everything:DD HEE

FREE DANCE WORKSHOPS (DANCEFCTRY)

haha i chionged back to boonlay straight after jazz to go attend the dance workshops at dancefactory haha. was pretty tired by then so i decided not to join in the bboy one (there were like tonnes of ppl there and you can just decide if you want to learn for that workshop anot if not you can just sit there since the studio's pretty big) and i was like nodding off there. BUT SAD. i should have done it cause the bboy instructor who seemed nice was teaching the people how to do baby freeze etc and looking at how practically everyone did it im pretty sure its quite easy. BUT ZZZ I MISSED IT DOODOOCAKES. haha fine i'll learn it on my own.

hmm i wanted to sign up for hip hop at first but changed my mind and decided on girls hip hop. but after going for the girls hip hop workshop i totally dropped that idea. i mean nothing about their dance etc its good but idk the girls hiphop i had in mind was the one i attended at the jitterbugs workshop. it was nicer i guess. like punkier girl style. the one on sat was like woah sexy sweet baby kind of style which eeks IM A FAILURE AS A GIRL I CANT DO CANT DO LARH HAHA. but still, it was fun:D and i was impressed at some guys who were like very seriously learning ALL the dances including girls hiphop though they're guys(:

and OH HOUSE. hahaha first time trying out house and IT IS TOUGH but ohman I LIKE ahhaa. i mean its so fast paced but its fun at the same time and its just NICE:D

oh but i guess i liked locking the most though. though i didnt expect much from it at first like i was just coming for the workshops for hiphop and girls hiphop. but the session was nice. like seriously cause idk its just nice. like it allows space for you to put in more character and i just felt nice throughout the lesson. and so, i signed up for that course. i seriously hope i dont regret it like in time to come though T.T which would be real sad. as in yes i like it but i do agree with ppl like my mum that zzz its not my style but then AGAIN i dont wanna stick to classical all the time like jazz even though i think the jazz im learning now its quite a big step away from being classical; we're like woah nearing street jazz.

AH WELLS. experiencing new dance styles and it really made me v happy i was like really light all the way back homeee(: dancing makes me happy(: i really hope i get into MAD now like even more hahaha. cause if i can feel so happy just by spending 2/3 of my sat dancing, im sure i'll be like really really really having fun dancing hmm idk a few times a week:D

PLUS I HOPE WE CAN TAKE OUR GRADE FIVE GOING GRADE SIX JAZZ EXAM AT THE END OF THIS YEAR (WHICH YES I THINK ITS POSSIBLE MELISSA ASKED NICOLE POO AND I AND ELIJAH OF COURSE MORE THAN ONCE ALRDY) which means oohlala skipping two grades in a year! AND

grade six means REALLY FUNKY PUNKY STREETISH JAZZ. like haha hell lot sass than the one we're having now which is alrdy really NICE:D the ex-grade fives (teresa/ adam/ mackensie/ indie etc) are all grade six now though haha i wanna move up to grade six soon tooooo:D

VIETNAM

WOOHOO VIETNAM TRIP IS APPROACHING(:

2009-06-07T11:30:00.003+08:00

haii i just updated my links so hahahaa if you're not in it chances are i forgot your url alrdy so just tell me kay!:D

2009-06-06T22:23:00.003+08:00

COUSINS

JONGIE'S BIRTHDAY SURPRISE

Q: What do you call a person who kills beautiful images like "Happy Birthday Jongie"?

A: A Michelle

hi im uploading photos a little by little from now on (as in those that i have) but not uploading all of them though cause it takes forever(:

anw chelly i deleted some pics of your twin that dear tainee took okay haha cause your twin super unglammmm. HAHA BUT I LIKE THE PIC THATS LIKE RIGHT ABOVE THIS CHUNK OF WORDS. haha your twin looks pretty in theree:D

oh wells thats all im uploading for now. wanted to post abt today but its like a full day of things; im exhausted now.

sleeping. now.

2009-06-05T12:21:00.003+08:00

hmm i know the video quality kinda sucks even in high definition; but i love this video/ this pair hahaha loved all their dance numbers :D and the songg:D

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okay bad girl steph stop watching videos! you were supposed to start on your math applications reflection ONE (aka the one everyone got back alrdy) like hmm 4hrs and 22 mins ago.

yep okay shall go bathe then start on work!:D

and ahhhh im finishing hanakimi (jap version) alrdyyy! running out of shows to watch! suggestions, anyone?!:D

2009-06-04T15:37:00.002+08:00

2009-06-04T14:52:00.001+08:00

gosh before i realised it i spent 3 full hours watching dance routines online. like whoo its 3pm now. :O

motivated to dance(:

2009-06-04T13:25:00.000+08:00

and i'll be the best you never had

i can finally learn to let go

2009-06-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

hii just finished watching monster vs aliens w my mum and my cousin at jurong point. HAHA SUCH A CUTE SHOW I LIIKKEE it was like really hilarious the ppl at the cinema were all laughing their asses off hahahaah (:

i wanna watch the hannah montana movie thingy the guy looks REALLY cute:D

2009-06-02T00:55:00.001+08:00

ahhhhhhh watched the hana yori dango final (movie) too and OMG OMG ((: fine fine almost died of boredom at first i was like cutting my nails while watching it cause like wth was expecting more of the domyouji + makino love and instead they were treasure hunting for some tiara.

but still watched on still watched on and SO AWESOME OMG awwwwwww shrieks screams squeals after i realised the exact reason for what they had been going through + the marriage scene and all the way after that was zeeee love x33

aww i shall watch hanakimi a few days later; still wanna indulge in the hanayoridango/bof craze firsstttt WHEEE:D

2009-06-01T21:25:00.003+08:00

SQUEALS. today is awesome awesome awesome because:

1. I handed in LA Portfolio = super light-hearted and happy now! Though zzz there's still points deduction for handing in today haha so hi half of ploty and liennie and witchie and jingyi etc we all still die! Haha BUT STILL I'M VERY HAPPY:DD its nice to just carry out your day without having any burdening deadlines to meet you know((:

2. I slept from like 4pm to 7pm to make up for my lack of sleep for 2 nights like seriously I didnt sleep at all :O And though it was quite a bad wakeup for me - my grandma was banging on my door with her usual loud voice asking me to take my bowl out cause she made dumplings soup for dinner. I mean yes I know its she didnt mean anything bad but I was just very annoyed by her loud voice and basically just waking me up. I mean, what do people who catch 7-8 hours of sleep every single day know about what people like me who severely lack sleep feel? ZZ but OH WELLS IM STILL VERY HAPPY CAUSE IT WAS A NICE NAP(: I mean, I played all my favourite songs on my computer and listened to them to sleep and everything(: AHH SO NICE(: and the dumpling soup was awesome(:

3. I FINISHED WATCHING HANAYORI DANGO TWO HAHAHAHA. I felt so awesome after finishing the last episode I was like squealing squealing squealing inside HAHAHA(: so nice so nice the last episode idk how to describe itttt hahaha. Gosh I love hanayori dango - the manga/ the jap version / the korean version / EVERYTHING(((: HANAKIMI IM COMING((:

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hahaha idk why this line suddenly popped up in my head its so random but anyways;

I'M LOVING MY JUNE HOLIDAYS, BABEHHHH x3

time to rest/ catch up on work/ dance/ spend time with friends/ and just change again(: I've been waiting for this for a long long time -- as in just spending time with myself and keeping away from everyone; i mean, i feel exhausted sometimes just hanging out in school with people and all. it feels so good and relaxing just being alone for once(:

and i guess now that i have one month to myself i shall create a new resolutions list for part II of 2009!(: i love long breaks like these they give me time to think about stuffs and just change in different aspects. back in lower sec it used to be how i look cause i rmb i came back after june hols in sec one with long hair and stuffs and in sec two with rebonded hair ahhaha. but now it shall be something awesomer(: idk i just want to be a better friend and better person and better everything and have more control in my life from now on(:

and i hope that anyone that sees this would just shut up and let me set my own resolutions myself(: i mean, in the past few weeks people have said different stuffs to me; some sweet, some annoying, and by people i mean from my friends and family and stuff. but somehow when i think about it (from watching dramas) those things that they say are supposed to motivate me to become stronger/ better/ nicer. but i guess this just doesnt work for me i mean i dont find it reflective or anything but simply just annoying. its like sometimes i have the will to just set up a new resolutions list to improve myself/ the way i control my life but its because of things that people say and do (which i guess they felt were good-willed) that simply puts me off and makes all my willpower and enthusiasm in improving myself poof into thin air.

i guess the only way i can reflect is through being a happy loner and just being by myself.

thats why im saying that i love june holidays(: i dont get how people can get bored; cause theres just so many things that i wanna do during june(: awesome month manzxzxx(:

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right now, i feel so light i think i can fly(:

2009-06-01T09:54:00.002+08:00

i can't help staring at this photo. can anything be sweeter than that?

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on a side note,

I FINISHED MY LA PORTFOLIO!

so proud of myself. going to school in less than an hour's time to just HAND UP the portfolio how lame is that. and then im coming home to get my muuuch needed sleep :D

BUAHAHA ITS GOOD RIDDANCE TO LA RUBBISH NOW. I FEEL A THOUSAND TIMES LIGHTER ALREADY.

2009-05-31T00:42:00.002+08:00

severe exhaustion. just one more day to go. chiong chiong chiong. i wonder if i could take a trip into my brain and do a calculation of the number of braincells left in there. hundreds? thousands? sighs they used to be countless.

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on a side note, when would my time to just enjoy life the way i want it come? geesh i'll just migrate off to some serene village and live happily alone one day.

2009-05-30T10:29:00.003+08:00

hanazawa rui
such a pretty name zomg(: aha fine i think i just like this character in the show a lot cause hes so nice and he still ends up not getting the girl :O haha jihoo too!

oh wells but NOT watching the taiwan version though went to wiki the actors and realized zz they look so old they can be ahpehks alrdy :O watching hanakimi jap version next. i know im slow i know im slow but netto said its nice so yaye:DDD

this is my motivation for doing la portfolio now please. im like gonna get la portfolio over and done with so that i can slowly watch my dear shows x33 (can you believe jellylee and supposedly jongie watches hanayoridango as well! HEHHEHHEH shows how nice my show is and how shuai the guys are! x3x3)

ah wells dance later better continue with my la portfolio now. thanks everyone who helped me in my peer editing kays:D its nice seeing those real nice people who agree to help you read through one whole chunk of words even if some of them are real busy; thanks so much!

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first time playing with dogs ytd D: as in yahh i like dogs/ puppies but thats only because i see them on display in pet shops -.- and my aunt's house had one poodle which is like ahmah alrdy so never play with it before.

aww jongie's doggies and puppies are so cute so cute i miss them like alot :( especially blackie! and the other two puppies for that matter!

cause i didnt know what it was like to play with puppies i thought its just you bend down and petpet them cause thats what i do with my Fur Real toy puppy last time. you know the one when you turn on the switch it would bark, move about and listen to your commands and let you pet it one! hahah!

so ohman my first time playing with REAL puppies/ pets (other than hamsters) for that matter. yes i know very deprived. and so cute they come and cuddle with you and climb on you just to lick your face and yeahh its so sweet at one point of time when all three puppies came to cuddle with me aww :( and the big doggies were cute too even though netto and i agree that the lady one was scary cause she suddenly jumped on me and started licking my face hahahahhaha. i was like ahhhhhh hahaha.

oh wells oh wells i miss them a whole lot; i really want a pet for myself next time too :(

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AHHH LA PORTFOLIO.

2009-05-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

sawadika everyone let me teach you how to make sure that you will FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS throughout the day!

yep!

set a time plan!:D but nope! thats not enough! you have to learn to be like STEPH and set that time plan as your desktop wallpaper.

TUDUHHH NOW YOU CAN SEE THIS SCHEDULE EVEN WHEN YOU MINIMIZE YOUR WHATEVER WORK WINDOWS and decide: hmm i shall go slack for awhile.

SMART EH. zzz

2009-05-27T14:16:00.003+08:00

personal statements make me depressed. if this stupid thing is the key to getting into universities, hur i doubt i'll ever get into one. im like fibbering and fibbering about my dearest qualities which in reality; i never ever had. i hate stuffs like these that makes me see how theres nothing good about me or being me.

depressing and demoralizing.

in any case, i like this song. old chinese song; heard it on some chinese entertainment show.

2009-05-27T12:25:00.003+08:00

how am i supposed to write a self evaluation about everything which i had learnt from language arts since sec three when i've basically learnt nothing at all from the useless lang arts teacher who has followed us through our upper sec years?

im joining in with the lang arts portfolio chionging frenzy team now.

shit lang arts portfolio urgh.

so much work to do; i hope my mum would just freaking understand that. whats more important? my attendance taken in school and then sitting/sleeping/doodling through what 4 hours of useless sabbatical sessions? or actually being at home and getting the work i need to do done?

im. not. stressed.

yeah yeah.

2009-05-25T16:36:00.003+08:00

today i:

1. ate one dumpling and a packet of oreos for lunch and went home with my gastric acting up. (supposed to be two dumplings but oh wells finished one while waiting for school to start today)

2. tried my 200% to keep my eyes open throughout the entire sabbatical period. nothing absorbed nothing gained = total waste of time. i'd rather just stay home and finish up my remaining work than go to school and fight my urge to sleep.

3. ditched engaging shanghai for asean (not for the funness but for company nehneh heh)

4. helped chelly choose her twin's photos for her twin's scrapbook prezzie(:

5. am thoroughly exhausted after crying bucketful of tears thanks to the last episode of my girl which turned out really really touching

6. felt a 987654321 times stronger urge to travel to korea and shop/ eat/ play there one day.

7. am gonna start stretching and stretching and practicing my dance cause thats what i love(: refer to previous post and read the quote(:

8. am so gonna finish some work today instead of slacking(:

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shall post a little about MAD concert anyways(: dance night back again!(: went to watch it with tcners (i can't really rmb who went but it was basically jinjin bethong eiffel zeph teresa tanyuanming yanying .. etc etc ..?) hee yepp but sucked that we ended up sitting on the steps cause lotsa ppl crashed for the show.

oh wells after cca went to thai with tungsy (who just went there to eat dinner) jinjin and zephyr (YAYE THE USUAL THAI PPL:"D) and bethong and tanyuanming and we were eating and eating when suddenly teresa amandasee yijing (?) yanying etc also went to thai to eat hahha. but anyways since im still floating in bankruptcy, I ONLY SPENT $5 HAHAHA.

cause i just got the beef noodles; when everyone around me were getting drinks/deserts ohgosh :O oh but haha i have nice juniors:D koped yuanming's iced tea at first but tanyuanming who prolly ended up buaytahaning the weird taste of the tea decided to just give the whole tea to me and drink my water instead HAHA. the taste was hmm weird larh but okay not bad in some way. zephyr liked it.

and then everyone started ordering red ruby but i held back my urge to order the dessert and im quite proud of myself for being able to abstainnn from spending on food HAHA:D oh but anyways haha tanyuanming tried offering me her red ruby at first but oh man i alrdy took her whole iced tea you mei you! ahah then bethanie ong also passed me her red ruby which i ended up koping in the end even though i ended up realising that zz shes saliva conscious = i just stole her entire half a bowl of red ruby as welll hahahahaha.

EH HEH thanks arh bethong:DDDD haha yaye two lovely juniors:D

then took bus to hwachong and yahh OKAY I SHALL START BLOGGING ABOUT DANCE NIGHT. HAHAHAHA.

which was nice! as in yeah went with high expectations since MAD is the cca that i've been wanting to join since sec two after all and hmm the dances were good. i mean if you look at each and every individual you can tell that the dance skills still not that there for some of them (oh wells its easy for ppl like me to say; when my dancing is prb even worse than them -- how to get in how to get in zomg -.-) and one or two screwed up here and there sometimes.

but the point is that when you look at them as a group the feeling is nice i mean its cool how when they're together their energy is high and all and it makes the audience attracted to their dance too(: i liked seeing the hiphop/bboys one the most i guess cause haha it was really good and haha vanessa was good too i was like whoa was this the person whom idk who told me never really learnt dance before before joining mad? hahaha she was good(:

and there was one dance which was kinda like the jazz that i learnt and i was like :O oh man (sudden realization) that thats the only dance i know and thats under the "modern" division which means if i try to get into MAD i'll most prob end up trying for modern next year even though im like way more interested (and also way more inexperienced -.-) in hiphop :O

but anyways i really liked dance night so to speak. despite the WAHPIANGEH SUPER IRRITATING music screw ups; i was like wincing everytime the music screwups happened cause i felt bad for the dancers like urgh they trained and practiced so hard and the whole things imperfect cause of the technical faults ; but heh ranie and i got really motivated to train real hard (not like we werent in the first place; just even harderrr hahaha) so that we can hopefully get into mad next year(: which is near impossible ohwells whatever everyones been saying that cause almost 60% of nygh girls want to get in there but still; can try right!

i mean i was like really happy watching the dances and smiling throughout some dances cause idk its like you can almost feel how psyched and happy the dancers are onstage and i just want to have a chance to feel happy because im dancing onstage too(:

okay shall stop now and go .. erm (i'll decide later) BYE:D

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took the photo in ningbo and i liked it a lot. i mean its really quite a pretty picture(:

and the amazing thing about life is that every person has a story to tell.

2009-05-23T11:07:00.002+08:00

"A man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams." John Barrymore

shan't elaborate but i shall really mug hard dance hard and play hard from now on. life is too short for us to moan and groan over what we've missed.

c'mon dandelion; its our time to fly

2009-05-20T19:25:00.003+08:00

(thanks bigbird for the peekture!:D)

csm today was boring. it was like urgh stuck in a jail, not being able to go anywhere because there were ppl guarding every single corner of the school. wasnt generally in a good mood cause it was just so hot so boring and we were basically just sitting around doing practically nothing (couldnt really play cards too cause we only had one stack :( shld have brought my cards/ cluedo along gosh)

and on a side note grr i shant believe ploty and come early for dk what ploty stuff anymore -.- woke up early just to reach school at 6.50 cause tiny said chelly she and ranie were playing basketball in the morning so i was like yaye okay i go there read book but in the end tiny was laaate as usual and they didnt play at all so just sat around sweltering in the lack of oxygen cause gosh there were so many ppl -.-

oh but chatted around with ranie and chelly before going to the tentage though. which was quite cute we talked about grandpa and her swimming history and hahahaha RSVP TELEPATHY. chelly the genius figured this out for us(:

yue hua = y.h.

yuan hong = y.h.

yue hua + yuan hong = RSVP

y.h. and y.h. = RSVP!:DDD

YEPP RSVP HAS THE SAME INITIALS(: haha maybe i shall credit chelly a little too by blogging about her:D

yanfang + xueling = yanling = netto!

hahaha(: played ranie's iphone games afterthat and just sat around then played abit of cards (i think i finally know how to play daidee however you spell that) and then pig family wanted to pon too (yaye pigg family!:D) so we all left the tentage tgt but zzz became sad wanderers in the end cause tuhduh ppl guarding everywhere :(

oh and hardly saw anyone that i knew today only saw like 2 people from 6R.

ah wells anyways was supposed to go out w tiny and chelly and ranie afterthat (bball first then pool) but was alrdy uber restless by the time csm was about to end so changed my mind and went home w maddie instead:D i'd prolly be sitting at some corner reading my book while they played bball anyways.

btw maddie + steph = pwnsome woohoo twins:D cause we went out by the second gate from hci not the main one that leads to the hwachong bus stop opp nanyang. anyways there were like REAALLY little ppl there and NO ONE guarding that gate anymore woohoo so the busstop was pretty empty and when i boarded my 174 the bus was pretty empty too like the upper deck only had 2 other ppl hahaha!

was expecting a hoard of students boarding the bus when 174 was approaching the hwachong busstop opp nanyang but was really shocked to see the whole busstop empty. cause i saw a whole group of ppl walking to the gate towards the busstop before i left. then i realised HAHAHAHA they were all still stuck in hwachong cause those npcc (?) ppl rounded the whole crowd of them up at the gate there and stopped them from leaving so funny hahahaa.

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was happier on the bus too cause i found out that i could pluck my earphone into my ds = i love my ds a lot now. can watch movie/ play games / listen to songs/ write to do list. hahahaha(: oh my pink mp3 crashed on me though :( :( :(

went jurong point to shop and bought what ive been looking for for v long yayeeness(: and then went to library after that to borrow 5 more books (i could borrow 8 cause of my grandma's card) oh wells i know whoever who hears about this would tell me i v no life once again but seriously, whatever. but gosh i am worried about my social life next time cause i've realised that im someone who would rather spend time alone with myself (shopping alone then going to library and then going home to read the book i've borrowed) then pretty much going out cause sometimes its just too tiring. plus expensive. -.-

and the thought that im happy being alone by myself is so lonerish its scary :O

oh wells!

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i guess that once something has changed it will never be like before.

past few days/ weeks/ even months had been so bittersweet i think its exhausting. i'm sick of this already and i'm sure she is too. forcing ourselves and squeezing out smiles. i know that our memories together last time had been awesome but i also know that we're just no longer like before. oh wells i'm tired of harping on some broken chords; lets just let things go back to what it originally was.

im pulling out of this lie.

2009-05-17T21:37:00.003+08:00

well-- i made a really long post last night (yes its the one with jihoo's pictures) but i blogged a lot more. but then hesitated about whether i wanted to post it cause i guess i was just in the mood and i typed a lot about idk sensitive stuffs. how i've changed since p4 in terms of character, and how im kinda sad about that. how ploty seems nicer these days but i just think that its not like before. how i like my current seating arrangement now even though i thought i'd not survive class if i didnt sit with jie/tbms in the past. how silei jeanie etc are so funny in class they make lessons more interesting. idk tonnes of stuffs.

so i decided to save draft, sleep, wake up and then decide whether to post again.

and heh. turns out the save draft didnt work and whatever that i posted after the 2.4km part in the last post (i didnt even finish what i wanted to post about 2.4) were all gone. well i guess thats just a sign that i shouldnt post all these out. i did think of retyping everything but i dont see the point of that. whatever i needed to vent/ to blog about/ to type/ i've alrdy typed them down last night. oh wells.

in any case (shall just repeat some of the things i posted last night for myself (im in another "i want to blog" mood now) and for some people(: )

by some people i meant ppl like chelly. haha who complained to me that i didnt give her a birthday post :O chelly cant blame me kay i typed a birthday post for you last night but its all gone now :( in any case, i added in my last night's post that--- i've been talking quite abit to chelly these few days, like during la lessons and stuff and chelly was like saying that i should look forward to coming to school. and now that i dont have my jie to look forward to i can look forward to seeing her. haha i guess what she said was pretty cute cause i ended up smiling after that(: im lazy to elaborate more (i typed way more last night) but haha i do rmb typing this line(: if silei's the fun granddaughter and jongie's the cute one; then chelly has to be the sweet granddaughter(: thanks chelly for just talking to me and being sweet and just being yourself hahaha im glad to have a granddaughter like you((:

and oh continuing the 2.4 post hahaha i said that the results were really cute because the twins and the sisters got the exact same timings(: as in jie and i got the same timings (12mins 17 secs) cause we finished tgt and jongie and chelly too (13mins plus) cause according to chelly jongie hopped around or something and waited for chelly and they finished tgt haha so sweet:D

and then i posted about foa perf on friday. and i was saying about how i really dreaded it for the past week and i guess my mood had really been affected by it cause i was worried i would be damn damn embarrassed in front of the whole school. so moaned groaned to jeanie/sharonyeo about it. but i ended up trying to give my all and put in lots of energy to it cause of the two teachers (wang dandan laoshi and another one idk her name shes from the la dept) cause they were nice for one thing and i saw how other ppl were putting time and effort into it and i didnt want to disappoint them; esp since i had agreed to it in the first place.

but anyways the main thing about the foa post was actually how i've changed since primary school. i miss the stephenie who was really expressive really dramatic really bold and idk. the steph who had always thought that stage fright was never my thing. i guess i've changed huh. changed into someone whos --- self conscious i guess. as nick ng would call us and i find it true. in pri school i wont even care if its gonna be embarassing. as long as i can get ppl looking at me and having their attention on me i'll be really happy and perform really confidently. but now i worry about stuffs and idk. i just dont feel like that bold expressive me who loved to perform and act anymore. and that makes me sad. like very sad. like growing up has made me into some kind of coward.

i rmb telling myself in sec two that its okay if idk how to dance cause even though my flexibility sucks and dancing techniques suck i'd beat all the other dancers in terms of expressiveness because i would be the one with the most impact in my dancing. cause i really believed in my ability to express myself without holding back then. but now-- one of the comments for my jazz exam: needs more impact. and heh the sadder thing is that --- im not even surprised i got this comment.

i've grown up. but if i was given the chance i'd have followed peterpan to neverland.

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oh and i was halfway through posting about ranie's birthday celeb gahh. i guess i shant post about that now. included stuffs about ploty. which i guess i shant post now (~~cause i know chelly and some other ppl in ploty are reading~~) haha nah just kidding its just cause i feel that some things right now are better if they're like kept to myself(:

but oh yeah idk why but some ppl in ploty like jie are like way nicer to me these few days though. which feels kinda unreal so to speak :O. like when chelly called me to the back of the class i thought jie was going to shout at me again for idk what reason but eh she ended up giving me her sandwich. when we had to split up into two tables at nydc and i was about to say okay tiny we sit with ranie then chelly jongie jelly jie sit tgt, jie sat down at one of the tables and nicely went "sit here??" when i asked her for her jacket cause it was v cold on the bus i was expecting the usual no but o.O she actually took off her jacket and passed it to me. and yeah many other unexpected times :O

its nice though its like my nice old big sister all over again just like last time; though it feels somewhat different too. heh how to put it its like last time i'll just go poke her/annoy her/ pull her hair/ lean on her/ link arms with her/ kope all her food and drinks/ etc etc unknowingly like its tian jing di yi cause shes my dajie but i just realised last night when i was blogging about ploty, that i dont do all that anymore.

i guess its cause now whenever i feel like doing so i think of stuffs. like chelly saying about how she grumbled and grumbled the other time when i koped away the sandwich which was her lunch/ her grumbling the other time that i woke her up though she had headache and was about to finally fall aslp/ chelly saying how come your dajie sms you always so short and grumpy she sms me always a lot of "haha" and smilies you know! etc, all of which heh actually made me feel quite bad for quite some time cause idk i didnt know i was that annoying :X

oh wells its still nice though; as in ploty((: last night's post made me think alot about ploty (even jelly jongie etc that haha i was surprised cause i rarely talked to them, but still!) and i think if i dedicated a post to each and everyone in ploty i'd have tonnes to write. im really glad i have awesome friends like them((:

i'll treasure them(:

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its mid-may now.
time left with ploty: 6+ months
time left (in school) with ploty: 4 months

2009-05-16T21:21:00.002+08:00

hii i decided to blog since school got a little more fun these few days(: hmm nah i should rephrase. school got a little more eventful these few days. at least now when i sit on my bed with my two giant softtoys and think about school theres a little more to think about now than just another (un)bearable schoolday.

(oh im posting pictures of jihoo ahaha doesn't his lovely face melt your heart!) haha actually not really i think im crazier about yoonjihoo in BOF rather than kim hyun joong as in the actor acting as jihoo :P but still i like jihoo's look! hahaha! and boys over flowers in general. its the first show that made me want more and get kinda addicted to it ever since i forced my drama addiction to stop in sec two. korean guys are so shuai omg (: jihoo/ jaejoong/ whats his name. the goong guy (yul) [HAHA THE POWER OF GOOGLE. i know alrdy kim jeong hoon!]

oh man seems like all the korean guys i like have the word jeong/joong in their names! haha kim jaejoong/ kim jeong hoon/ kim hyun joong(: OH OH OMG I JUST REALISED THEIR SURNAMES ALL KIM ALSO HAHAHA.

2.4km. haha 2.4 this year made me really happy cause i managed to get my best timing so far (haha not much of an atheletic gene there) so yeah really happy((: cause last time i simply couldn't break the 13min curse (im serious my best timing last time was 13:00 which made me damn damn pissed like why cant the stopwatch be nice and just give me 12.59 instead!)

oh but this year it was damn cool cause when 2.4 started ranie and i who were running together started running behind chelly jongie and jie (and well xiaolu who was nearby). did i mention i cant stand running together as a class cause its so crowded as its with the other classes also? but haha anws i thought it was quite cool afterwards cause the six of us (the twins/ the sisters/ ranie and xiaolu) ended up running tgt in like a group of 6 and we continued to be like that throughout the whole 2.4 and ended up as the top six in 409. ahha idk it just felt nice running in a group.

i realised that im someone who cant run alone cause idk i feel tired damn easily. so i was really glad i was running in a group & had no intention of overtaking at all.

anws by the time it was last round the only person that i saw when i ran was jie the rest poofed :O so started sprinting as soon as i passed the place where we started and idk it just feels really nice to sprint you feel the wind blow past you and stuffs like that. and i guess i liked overtaking ppl too. cause when you sprint you overtake those ppl in front of you (though i didnt know them they were from other classes) and i guess it just feels nice to do so.(:

HEE AND THE RESULTS(: which was cute haha!

first in class for 2.4 was jie and second was me and HAHA we finished at the same time WHEE so yepp had the same timing! ranie came in third (my RSVP woohoo!) and xiaolu was forth and the twins (michelle and jongie) were fifth and sixth!:D:D:D (aka our original group which ran tgt!)

and jongie was damn cute like a kid cause when we were sitting according to our position for 2.4 in class she happily looked at jie and the rest of us in front and made the handsign "A" with her childish gleeful look. hahaha

2009-05-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

shit to the stomachache that im getting every once in i dunno when zz. its like sometimes gastric sometimes at the mense area sometimes at the side i dont even know what it is except its damn pain zz. shall go sleep now. going out with tablemates tmrx3

csm relay heats

2009-05-08T05:19:00.005+08:00

hiii im so proud of pig family wooohoooo:D and chelly!:D and fine fine stupid tiny who came to support us and sat there like some ghost according to tanyuanming!:D

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HII JOJO HI CHELLY I UPDATED SOMEMORE SCROLL DOWN SCROLL DOWN IF YOU WANT TO READ HAHAHAH

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(jojo's blog)

oh, and 4x100m relay today. jennifer didnt come to school cos she had fever? haha we were contemplating whether we should still go or not larh, short of one runner. plus jennifer was the only excited one about the relay? (lol). in the end got steph into our team and the other team didnt want to go or something?then i went to ran 2.4 around the track after school with chloe cos i need to learn how to count! later i run another extra round like last year! did 13.18s so slow larh D: slower than last year's timing. my aim is to be 12min! after that went back up to class to join ji inn/mad/stephpangg. doing math ws and watching mulan! HAHA the bad mongolian guy is so scary his eyes! and we kept making weird noises whenever he appeared lol.

then later went to ermmm join ji inn's cca? kinda weird at first cos i didnt expect to many people to be there! they even have a coach to teach them chess?! O: waste money! and those that arnt coached by him also need to pay the fees. stupid. played scrabble (ehh we're quite good for first-timers righhttttt) :D and rummy-O. LOL me and stephpang pawn mad/ji inn! WOOOOOH :D:D

later tong came to find us and i needed to shit before going over to hci! LOL. seee i told you running makes me want to shit! anw they kept hurrying me i couldnt do it properly larh! D:

went over to hci, met huilin/chelly. the heats got postponed? half an hour behind schedule. in the end became me, tong, steph, and chelly running haha cos ji inn's shoes cmi. our goal was not to get last in our heat. LOL. but seriously it was quite a sensible goal right. they were all wearing school shoes to run! got the outermost lane ): hate running on the outside. yada yada in the end we got 2nd in our heat! :D i was super surprised larh.

i passed the baton already then look look see who's the last, cannot recognise anyone but just saw a group of people at the front so i figured out steph should be one of them. we had the lead til the last part ohkayyyy:D HAHA im so proud of us! LOL. seriously didnt expect it larh. but somehow i think we wont get into finals(?) cos our heat is like some of the lousier heats? idk. but nevertheless WOOOHOOO surprise surprise :D wanted to pretend to be team2 and go ran the relay again, but in the end didnt cos cos that heat was the pro heat with dunno which classes larh. and we scared kenna disqualified. lol.happy happy:D

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(tongpiggy's blog)

csm heats!

hilarious omg!

heats for 4x100 b girls today was super funny. first, we had one missing runner because jennifer's sick today. and then, we got steph pang to replace her. somehow because of that, the second team from our group backed out since steph who's also from the second team came to run with us. and so we set our own target for the heats: not to get last! (meaning that we were aiming for second last.) it was totally unexpected that we would turn out second!

in the end, there was chelly in our group and ji inn not in. we were so surprised to hear that we got second! but that's like second out of one of the 5 heats for the same event! so we dont know if we would end up running in the finals. (haha omg it would be so funny if we did). we were also comtemplating to run for 409team2 after our own race, but since the result was quite desirable, we did not heh. i dont like the baton, it makes my hand filled with static or whatever it is called.

i think my poor school shoes suffered a great deal today from 2 rounds around school + csm heats. maybe the next time i try running whilst wearing it it would break ): i am very amused that runner weaaring school shoes can outrun those in sportshoes!

spoilt school shoes ftw!

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hahaha i'll post more later. 5.38am (going to school alrdy) still need to bathe. BYE

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HII SEE I SAID I'LL POST SOMEMORE AND I REALLY DID. BOLD IN BRIGHT RED SOMEMORE FOR YOU (chelly/daddy/etc) TO SEE HEHH:D

anw yahh im really proud of pig family cause at first while walking to hwachong we were talking about our goal for heats which is just not to be last cause if not super malu + super super malu for daddy whos a tracker hahaha so yeah and the other one is just to have fun!

and my goal was actually just to cross the hwachong overhead bridge hahaha i agreed to take part in the heats mainly cause very fang bian its like after the heats walk out of hwachong poof its the hwachong bus stop hehehe.

anw and chellyyy. hahaha chelly took jeanie's place in the relay:D my cute granddaughter who didnt go back to playing basketball with tiny and instead took part in the relay to pei me. hahahaha:D i was really touched then THANK YOU CHELLY SEE IM LEAVING HOUSE SOON TO GO GET SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY PRESENT.

cause chelly was like "do you want me to compete?" and i thought awhile and since jeanie didnt mind i actually wanted chelly to pei me since oh yeah did i mention my whole relay group pulled out of the race?

yeah cause jenni wasnt there so jeanie asked me during math if i can run for their race also with pig family (daddy jeanie tongpiggy) and i didnt want at first but since i was running with jie jongie chelly also after all one more race doesnt matter so i said okay. (plus its pig family! hahah not some unknown stranger in class!:D)

yeahh then after school jie asked me if i can run with jeanie they all instead and i was like just replied her "yeah i already am i said okay to them alrdy" and then right after that jie was like saying "oh then since like that our relay team also don't need to run alrdy lorh since you're running with jiinn tongzhen. they all our team only have three ppl also cannot take part" and so she decided our team not running. which i was quite "huh" at first cause i only agreed to run at first cause i thought since i alrdy have to stay back to run with ploty no diff running with pig family as well. but now its like my dear ploty not staying back alrdy but somehow or another i still ended up having to stay back -- didnt know that heats was on that day actually until chelly told me at lang arts. was planning to go home sleep at first cause v tired.

yah yah anw i was okay after awhile until i told chelly our team not participating and that cute girl started having the chelly-is-getting-pissed face and was telling me that should be my dajie herself dont want to take part in the relay thats why she got me to run with pig family then she got excuse dont need to go run or something.

yahh which somehow made me quite sad after hearing what chelly said, like eeh i didnt know, really ah so mean :( yah so was really quite sad/ annoyed at first until i went back to my seat and started thinking about what i can do to waste my time till 5.10pm.

THATS WHERE PIG FAMILY COMES IN HEEE:DDD my oh so awesome pig family(:

cause tongpiggy decided to play mulan while doing math in class until her cca starts so we were watching mulan! and then jeanie asked if i wanted to go to her cca with her and maddie! until the sports heat! cause jojo going too! and i was like OKAY HEE SO FUN:DD and almost instantly cheered up a whole lot. its like idk doing stuffs i like. i like watching cartoons. i like playing board games. all the things i havent done for a long long time since i stepped into sec three. :(

and i like watching cartoons with pig family. cause jojo who went to run came back to class and we were all watching mulan together. and ohman its so qing song zi zai watching with them like so fun at parts where the scary man appears we'll be like omg i cant stand his face so scary! and then hahahah there was one part when mushu was sliding down the snow slide thingy looking for mulan so he began plucking up hair that is standing out of the snow to see like who the hair belongs to, hoping to find mulan. then the first person's head tht he lifted out of the snow was the stupid scary general and yahh the general went "GRAAHHHHH!!" and it was so unexpected i screamed hahahaha so funny! anw yep it was just so fun!

then went to mind sports with jeanie daddy and maddie. daddy and i didnt expect so many ppl so we didnt dare to go in at first so went to toilet to pee (or shit, in daddy's case) HAHA. yahh then went in in the end saw familiar faces like jiaxin and qisan and sat on same table with some of maddie jeanie's juniors. haha played one round of scrabble and two rounds of rummy-o and heheeeee DADDY WE PWN THEM AT RUMMYO HAHAHAHA. daddy daughter pig genes!:D

then after that left to toilet to change for heats and DADDY WENT TO SHIT AGAIN my pig father is full of CRAP i tell you! HAHAHAHA. and she just made me rmb that shes the one with all the poor peestipation and constipation problems back in obs HAHAH.

yah anyway crossed over to hwachong after that and saw tiny and chelly.

(I'LL STOP AGAIN. HEE CHELLY ARE YOU SAD IM LIKE STOPPING AT THE PART WHERE IM ABT TO BLOG ABOUT YOUUU!! BUT HAHAH THINK ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE I HAVE TO GO GET YOUR PRESENT NOW CAUSE IF I LEAVE ANY LATER I DOUBT I'LL GIVE YOU YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT BY MONDAY)

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did i mention how glad i am that im spending more time with ppl like jeanie/ silei/ tiny/ chelly/ ranie/ sharonyeo/ bigbird sometimes and some others now(: like jeanie hahaha ohh wait i'll kope her blog post too!

steph: jeanie you dont blog anymore right?
jeanie: i have a blog!
steph: yah but you dont update anymore right!
jeanie: i do! oh but wait when did you go to my blog i updated it only two days ago.

(steph suddenly realises something)

steph: OHHH IS THE "TURNING SIXTEEN MEANS MATURITY ETC" POST THE POST THAT YOU SET TO BE RIGHT AT THE TOP OF YOUR LJ?

jeanie: (started laughing) YAH!
steph: CHEY CAUSE EVERYTIME I GO TO YOUR LJ I SEE THAT POST FIRST AND I THOUGHT YOU STILL NVR UPDATE SO I CLOSE THE WINDOW! HAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHA. anw

(jeanie's post!)

Yesterday was heats! Michelle ran for me cos she wanted to (at first, anyway), and besides I had no shoes that I could actually sprint in. Besides, my speed is pathetic, so that's alright. Michelle was first runner, then Joline, then Tong then Steph, last. And I was standing at the end line. Hahaha. When it started Michelle was a bit slow but it didn't matter cos she was the first. And Joline ran so fast but I didn't recognise her hair so I didn't know who was that, lol. Tong also! Ran so fast I didn't believe it was her until I saw the green baton. LOL. And then she passed to Steph who also had slow reaction (lol). But she overtook someone and they got 2nd :D Thing is, we didn't even get into final 8 D: And apparently the first in our heats didn't get in as well. Lol. But yay 409 was 12th out of around 31 if I didn't remember wrongly. Not bad!

Nothing much to say already, actually. Except I got inspiration from Steph and decided to make a pretty To-Do List, so at least it cheers me up. Oh no wait it won't. But at least, at the very least, I won't be depressed even further by my ugly handwriting and scribbles and what-not. This list is rather pretty and neat, but a bit empty cos I didn't dare to draw/doodle on the blank spaces like Steph did cos I was afraid I would ruin the nice work. Lol.

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HAHA KAY TO BE CONTINUED BYEEE:D

2009-05-05T21:14:00.003+08:00

HII HUGGABLES FOREVERZXX HAHAHA STEPH AND DELENA.

i like this picture alot hahaha woohoo huggables pwn:D i just spent a whole big fat period of time downloading scarlet / the little prince photos hahaha nick ng kept his promise and uploaded them woohooooo! (does cheeken dance) and i was like looking at all the past rehearsal times and stuffs like that and went awww.

might have been tiring, might have been sian, might have been fun, might have been stressful, but it has definitely made me really nostalgic.

oh wells had qing gong yan today! RHEN ZELZEL PRISCILLA (haha i always thought her name was jessica idk why!) NEVER COME HORRIBLE PEOPLE HORRIBLE PEOPLE cries only rebecca came! haha anw ate pizza and drinks frm canadian pizza and i ate five and was still hungry but EEKS felt quite bad since my poor ungluttonish jnrs like ate 1 or 2 only ohmanszx. so we forced them to eat more haha!

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Dates of Second Block Tests
by Mrs Ho-Sam Choon Juen - Thursday, 23 April 2009, 12:07 PM

Dear all,
the second block tests will be from 3 August (Mon) to 6 August (Thur). The detailed schedule will be released by term 3 week 1.

-- my school is pwnsome. the first block tests not even over second one up alrdy. not bad arh nanyang. think really far ahead.

oh wells now that i think about it its not that far away dang. I'LL FLUNK.

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oh just something random that i remembered! haha was studying at the library cafe again the other day and decided to stay till 9pm+ again so not going home for dinner. so called my mum.

mummy: orh then who are you with now ah?

steph: nobody. (thinks) oh! houseflies! (cause there really were lots of houseflies there)

mummy: gen shui?

steph: cang ying! houseflies!

mummy (in a classy, understood tone): orh so she will eat with you?

steph (burst out laughing): no im with the HOUSEFLIES!

mummy: (confused) you're with your friend right?!

steph: no! cangying!

mummy: who is that!

steph: INSECT. HERE ALOT OF HOUSEFLIES!!!

and my mum finally got it HAHAHA. forgot what she said after that but it somewhat revolved around the sentence "rubbish larh you" hahaha! yepp so funny so funny:D

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kay back to physics. hate it. hate school. hate class. pftzx

2009-05-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

i had lots of stuffs that i had wanted to type at first; but just randomed past some ppl's photos at the skating rink and then suddenly all i did was miss skating and really miss skating.

argh remind me why i miss skating again. :(

(edit: oh you dont have to. routines like these did the job for you)

her spins and leaps were awesommeee like oh man so nice and powerful and prettyyy. plus i kept playing back the 2:15 part cause ohman. :D

ah wells.